oh, wawawa

....!

2011-07-12T14:59:00.000-07:00

One sub post from June and one brief one from April.

What the hell have I been doing?

Why haven't I been keeping up?

I guess I just need to start now--

Griffith Observatory with Mike. We walked under a full moon with the city glowing beneath us. Realized that we had something much more than we had originally anticipated.

I went to Sakuracon!

I shot with Rue!

Jeanine visited me for a week! We went to LACMA.

Fanime! Lots of shoots. Ghetto cosplay. IT WAS GREAT.

Wig hair kept on falling out T_T

kendo banquet!

Our graduating seniors!

School ended...and I went to Mike's house for a couple of days before Yosemite.

buaaaaa

DAT GROCERY LIST (it was half)

Picked up the RV and Mike and I rolled around in the back. IT WAS SO FUN.
First view of Yosemite!

our taiwanese crew (+me and Mike)

Stephanie and Mac!

JACKIE DENNIS AND XUAN

attempting to cook

First campsite! Mike and I slept outside in the tent.

Glacier Point

:D

neenjas

Exploring + riding bikes with Mike

It was so tame 0_0

Base of the falls! It felt like a hurricane. Mike and I climbed past the "DANGER DO NOT CROSS" wall so that we could get closer to the base and kissed there. Something I'll always remember..!

hot dogs on the side of the road! THIS WAS THE DAY WE GOT LOST LOLOL.

We wandered forever because our walkie talkie battery died and none of us had our cell phones on us. GOOD TIMES.

BEARS

Carved this and threw it over cascade creek! I wonder where it is now...?

Stayed a few more days at Mike's house (SO FUN) and then moved in with Jeanine! We had to DEEP CLEAN that place...it was so ghetto T___T BUT at least its clean now!

We went to Bouchon!

HOME COOKING

Shot with Serena

END OF FRESHMAN YEAR

2011-06-04T23:30:00.000-07:00

---June 4
It's been a long time, huh?

Two and a half months? I think that's the biggest gap I've ever had in doing any journal writing or recap or anything. Is it laziness? Is it me becoming a more private person? Being busy?

Who knows, who cares?

Whatever-this was never for anyone else.

I miss having a cohesive journal with pictures reminding me of all the good memories I've had (and what I've done too, I suppose).

Time to start again before things get hectic again!

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But man..! Who knew that it could have turned out this well? My luck has been a bit too good this past quarter...I'm almost afraid of the time when it'll stop or when bad luck comes my way. What's the use in worrying about that though? Whatever whatever. I wonder, why do I do what I do? Art-wise I suppose. Life-wise, too. Like, drawing has been my "thing" since elementary school, but now I'm really doubting whether I'm good enough or if its smart enough to continue (even though I've really really slowed down). It takes up so much time and for what? I don't think I have that pure inborn talent and the hard work that's necessary to get to a fulfilling spot. But drawing's the thing that started it all- those days in middle school on deviantart and drawing with Tonya and Victoria during those little friday night parties we used to have. ...////

-----June 21
Man, how DOES time manage to pass so quickly? I remember when I used to post like...every three days in this blog, back when my life was uneventful. Now that I'm actually doing things and life's value is starting to become more clear to me, I find that my time to sit back and reflect diminishing. Or is it because I continually put too much on my plate? That I think I can be an overachiever when I really am not? Oh, who knows? Who cares?

Spring quarter has ended. My first year at UCLA has ended.

Something new starts. (After I catch up on event posts.)

Spring Quarter!(START)

2011-04-09T02:46:00.001-07:00

umumum. ITS BEEN OFF TO AN AMAZING START.

How could I possibly express what has happened? Well...to start....my classes (interactivity, motion, and design history) are all AMAZING. I'm so glad to be taking all of them even though they're pretty challenging and time consuming. Its all super important stuff that I'm actually passionate about so...I couldn't be happier. I feel productive, wheras in drawing and color...it wasn't anything, really. Just coming back from that amazing spring break has been really good to me; I feel like I was fully recharged and then some. I got a job as graphic designer/marketing assistant at UCLA recreation! IT FELT GOOD, MANG. First OFFICIAL PER HOUR job!

...

...oh, and Mike is my boyfriend now. WHICH MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN THE BIGGEST REASON TO MY HAPPINESS. First week back was just a whirlwind of emotions, confessions, and all that.

DATES:

March 30, 2011--officially asked me out
March 31, 2011--firstu kissu
April 6, 2011-- first date (rollerblading!)

BUHUHUHU. I'll talk more about it later (its all recorded in the physical journal which is at 100%...I'm still not quite sure how much I should post up...perhaps 20% here haha)

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finally finished decorating my room too!

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Took photos with Rebecca! FILM.

hipsta movie

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Spring Break

2011-04-09T02:09:00.000-07:00

Its been a bit crazy, huh? Winter quarter ended with little fanfare, everything went as expected, and everything flowed smoothly into spring break.

WENT TO FASHION DISTRICT DURING FINALS WEEK WITH SHANTEL AND COURT

PARKED HERE

Here's my type book!

I'm pretty proud of this thing even though its soft cover and kind of ghetto. OH WELL SIMPLE AND CLEAN IS HOW I LIKE IT.

It was really nice to go home again. Jeanine also came over...which was pretty amazing. MY BATTERIES ARE RECHARGED. Everything that I had doubted this past year, she put back into place and reassured me, and everything that COULD have been, she was a catalyst. I'm so lucky. Remember all the midnight talks we'd have about the state of our nation/world, how to be the best people we could be, how to make things happen, and how we are limited only by what we perceive ourselves to be, ect ect. Remember all our moments/constant craziness (FENG LE ALL THE TIME). Remember visiting our school, driving to Briones late late late at night and listening to the rain in the darkness, taking photos the next day in Briones + finding THAT tree + running in the road + all that Loard's ice cream.

SO YEAH, THIS IS US.

UMPH

PLEASE BE MY LOVE

POSIN' BY DAT WINDOW

DANCING

HERPDERPDHEPRHEP

8D

O_O

WE WENT TO SAFEWAY AND BOUGHT $40 OF JELLO, BROWNIE MIX, AND COOL WHIP. UMPH UMPH FOREVER FATTIES.

JEANINE'S

MEIN

ORIVIA

WE HAD SHABU SHABU WITH MIGUEL ONE DAY! I WENT FABRIC SHOPPING WITH HIM AND THEN WE PICKED UP JEANINE. WE WERE AN HOUR LATE AND WE ACCIDENTALLY TOOK A TOUR AROUND SF. IT WAS GREAT CATCHING UP AND TELLING DISGUSTING STORIES OVER DINNER BUHUHUHUHU

UMPH

HARD AT WORK

OLIVIA IS SO FREAKING KAWAII

DIMSUM WITH V'S FAMILY TOO

DAT EPIC STORM CLOUD.

INFILTRATING BENTLEY

I MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE TAKEN LIKE 20 ROLLS OF FILM

PLAYING PING PONG WITH VHS AS THE NET AND MY DAD IS USING HIS CELLPHONE AS A PADDLE LOLOLOL

RIBS AT 1AM YES

VISITED REBECCA IN SF FOR A DAY

DON'T KNOW WHAT'S GOING ON WITH THEM KNEE SOCKS

LOARD'S

BRIONES

MAJESTIC

ASD;FAABAHAHAH

TREE

ITS REAL

BEST EVER

YES.

Also, spring break was when Mike told me he liked me. OH, THOSE NIGHTS AT 4AM ON FB CHAT, HOW I SHALL REMEMBER THEM.

"I pretty much just waltzed through this year all high and mighty -like, until for some reason i tripped and fell, and when i looked up the elephant was there....aaand kept growing until i couldn't really ignore it anymore, which was sometime last week, aaaaaand now I'm starting to like you."

-JUST REMEMBER THAT FOREVER. ahhhhhhhhh

China.

2011-03-13T22:47:00.000-07:00

Of February and March

2011-03-13T21:08:00.000-07:00

What a turbulent and eventful month this has been! Here's your standard photodump...
I've been keeping all my thoughts (or well, I did for two weeks) in a moleskine journal lately, since I've been censoring what I've been saying here. I still want something 100% to look back on, not just the beginnings of ideas.

Nothing on here gets the time and reflection it deserves. The trip to Watts? No words, just pictures? But can I describe what I felt at that time? Not yet, not here I suppose.

I swear, I think I have ADHD now or something. Why can't I concentrate and just get stuff done like how I used to? Or was I even good in the past? Maybe I paint a better memory of old self but in reality I was a lot worse...I talk like I know it all, but I know nothing. But then I talk to some others, and realize how much I know. But THEN I talk to more people and once again I realize how little I know. Its all about who you're with. I'd like to surround myself with the people who make me feel like I know nothing. Not in the demeaning way, but in the way that really pushes me to improve myself. I can't be satisfied. I shouldn't be satisfied. Yeah, its always good to feel proud of a project or celebrate something you finished, but don't ever think for a second that you can just stop there. Perhaps that's what separates the good from the excellent. I would like to be the latter.

Doing the pixar app really forced me to reevaluate everything once again. Yeah, I'm good at photography and drawing. But not great. And what does that have ANYTHING to do with what they're looking for? I'd say I'm a jack of all trades, but who needs someone who is only mediocre in many fields? The easy answer is just to pick one, isn't it? But I want to do them all. Or at least try. I've been limiting myself here too much. What have I even been doing? To be honest, I haven't really really been wholeheartily doing ANYTHING this year. Isn't that sad? Here I am, first year in college, and just meandering it away. NEXT quarter though! I'm excited for it. ALL the classes interest me (or are going to be very very useful and relevant), I'll be working on a team to develop a flash game (learning flash and character rendering woo!), (hopefully) working (got an email back...now there's just the phone interview ahhhh), annnnnd making 3 costumes. Hahaha. I need concentration and focus! I need motivation (I have that now, but I'm not sure if I'll have it when the going gets hard haha)! And I need to reconnect. The old "oh, I'm busy" shouldn't be an excuse anymore (even though I am). I need to meet more people, but above all, actually create those strong bonds. There have been so many potential people lately, I just need to extend and follow up. Meeting the other half and other years of D | MA is really exciting. ESPECIALLY upper classmen. It's so inspiring to speak to them about what they're doing or working on...and they're all so nice. Kind, confident, humble. That's what I want to be. Being in PC and IV too! Seeing the upperclassmen there...I want to be like them. Ahhhhhh growing takes so much time and effort. But its so good.

Hmm. So my grandfather died. Paternal grandfather. February 20th. I was in freaking BCAF when I found out. Out of all places. Its funny, I had lunch with Elliot that day and as we were talking and just about to leave, I suddenly brought up my grandpa. Yeah, he was in the hospital and I knew that, but I didn't honestly believe that he was actually going to leave, especially not that day. Why did I think of him and just start talking about him? I'd like to think it was him reaching out one last time...Man, it was pretty hard the night I found out. THANK YOU Rebecca for being with me and distracting me. What did we even watch? The Fall? It was a good distraction. But as soon as she left...those few hours alone were pretty terrible. Three more friends came by that night. How kind they were. I left the next day, and the funeral was the day after that. It was crazy. I was pretty numb through most of it. Olivia and Angela didn't really understand. My father refused to cry, what would happen to us if he had started crying? My grandma and the maid were going through the most pain though...Man, we're so lucky to have the maid. I don't know what we'd do without her. Wellllll its all over now, right? We can do nothing but move on, right? Its frightening though. Seeing my grandfather's body...and just knowing that I'd end up in that same situation sooner or later...It makes me wonder whether what I'm doing is really worth it or if it really has any meaning? Everything seems so meaningless if the idea of the end is looming over the horizon...everything is temporary. Perhaps that's why I've drifted towards Christianity...this promise of something greater and beyond the life we know...Ah! we shall see. I need to think more on it.

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Anyways, all the photos over the past month.

Had a shoot with Deanna and Jessica. Many many things went wrong hahaha. Fog machine didn't work, location didn't work out as I wanted it to...I didn't know how to use flashes. BOHOHO it was a learning experience. A big thank you to the models for putting up with everything!!

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Saw SASSY GAY FRIEND. He was amazing. I was first in line, waiting with SETHHHH.

please be my friend forever

ton of camera equipment from my grandpaaaaa

China pictures are in a post before this one!

LAX

SFO AGAIN

I WAS SO TEMPTED TO TRY IT

<3

LETS GO

LOL

AND HOME AGAIN FOR A DAY. HUNG OUT WITH JEAN AE, MY FRIEND FROM ELEMENTARY SCHOOL.

CREPEES

THE NEAT LITTLE SUBURBIA I COME FROM

ITS ELLIOT'S CAMERAAAA

MUSTACHECON

AH!

THIS IS HOME

CAME VERY DANGEROUSLY CLOSE TO MISSING MY FLIGHT. AGAIN. LOOK AT THAT LINE. LOOK AT IT.

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KENDO DINNER THAT WE RAN THROUGH A TYPHOON TO GET TO

WE LOST RACHELLE AND FOUND HER AGAIN

YUHIHAI- UCLA Kendo tournament

WE WOKE UP AT 6AM TO VOLUNTEER AND IT WAS BOMB

AND SET UP THE NIGHT BEFORE

WUSHU WAS IN THERE RIGHT BEFORE US AND THE ROOM SMELLED LIKE ASS

TAPING LINES

AWW YEAH

BAHAHA

BRIGHT AND EARLY

MY BENTOOOO

KEEPING SCOREEEE

THE LIGHTING WAS QUITE NICE

FELLOW VOLUNTEERS

PRACTICE

SIGH IT IS SO BEAUTIUS

CLIFF BARS!

CLIFF BARS!!

CLIFF BARS!!!!!!!!!!!!

MEANT TO BE BROTHERS

GRACE HAD AN INTENSE 15 MINUTE ROUND

HER GAME FACE....

FINAL MATCH

TONY WON WON FIRST PLACE IN INDIVIDUALS. TONY WON WON. BAHAHA

<3

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PC'ING IT

I LOOK FORWARD TO THESE FRIDAY NIGHTS.

WHY DO YOU BLOCK YOUR FACE

CORPORATE

1AM TO A FOOD TRUCK YES

IT WAS REALLY REALLY GOOD

MARY NEEDS TO GROW AND SHE ONLY EATS ONE MEAL A DAY. WE TRIED TO GET HER TO HAVE A BITE. IT WAS A LONG HARD BATTLE BUT WE WON IN THE END.

mmmmmm

2011-02-20T20:16:00.001-08:00

late january-early feb- froshcon+life

2011-02-14T20:20:00.000-08:00

photo dump!

THIS WAS JUST FLOATING BY THE ART BUILDILNGS

WORKED WITH LUCAS FOR LIKE 6 HOURS ON OUR TYPE PRESENTATION. DOUBLE MONITORING LIKE PROS

READING IN FRONT OF FIREPLACE

I GOT MY HAKAMA!!!

FROSHCON~~~

WENT TO WATTS WITH I.V. SHALL ELABORATE MORE IN

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VASA FIELDTRIP

Tofebruary Shoot! (Santa Monica)

2011-02-10T20:50:00.000-08:00

This was on January 28!

Cara and I have been planning to shoot for her site ( www.tofebruary.com ) since...maybe March of last year, but we never got to do it because of our distance. BUT NOW that I'm here in Socal, we shot together!

WENT TO SANTA MONICA

WE RAN INTO A PHOTOGRAPHER-LIFEGUARD. WE RAN IN THE SAND. WE LOST HER PHONE. WE SAW THE SUN SET ON THE BEACH. AND IT WAS EXCELLENT.

6:19pm--

2011-01-22T18:17:00.000-08:00

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An update on life, I suppose! Pictures can only show so much. Words can only convey so much. But in combination...? (What about video?) Why do I filter my picture posts with words posts? I guess...its this belief that the people who look at this for pretty pictures don't really look at the words. I don't know! I can't seem to link pictures that well with words. At all. When I used to make posters for Bentley, I'd have the HARDEST time picking fonts and making them actually look nice (and they never did). I don't think I could ever write a storybook hahaha. Its either a photo book with only pictures (and light captions) or a novel. I love both so much though! More than almost anything, I love artbooks. That may be a lie. But right now, at the very moment, on this Saturday in an unusually warm January in Los Angeles, I love artbooks the most. Clothes? Makeup? Shoes? They are NOTHING compared to artbooks.
.
6:25pm

AH- My 30 minutes for play has just finished. I'll resume at 6:55. (I'm working on the art history RENAISSANCE AND BAROQUE paper!)

7:13pm-

HAHAHAHA most unproductive hour ever. How did that time even pass? Whyyyy is this paper taking so long to START? So pathetic. Anywhooooo- I need to find a work study. WHO NEEDS A DESIGNER? OR ILLUSTRATOR? Man. I don't want to do it though. And yet I do. I want to make beautiful things-portfolio worthy pieces. Maaaaan. I don't know what I want. WELL. I want to be productive. But I feel busy already! Alright. If I can't find a work-study that has to do with my major or can REALLY help me in the future, I won't do it. I'll do freelance stuff on the side again. Or something like that. I need a connection in the theater department. Whoooo wannnnts headshots? Maybe I should just advertise on their little bulletin board. Is that allowed? WORTH A TRY. I need to plan a shoot. I've only REALLY done one (the one with Veronica and all that electronic junk). I'm doing one with Cara in Santa Monica on Friday though...but that's just for pretty photos that I can't REALLY use. More practice is all it'll be! And some nice necklaces and accessories as payment. ------

9:10 pm

Just skyped with Casey! Oh, high school friends, HOW I'VE MISSED YOU. Lunches in the art room. Mr. M. Ms. Bailey. Ahhhhh.

And now for SPUTNIK SWEETHEART. Oh, Murakami.

ARTARTART + LACMA + PHOTOS

2011-01-22T16:52:00.000-08:00

Sketchdump!

YEAH. Been eating/taking fruit from the dining halls to paint lately!

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Put on makeup and took photos with Rebecca in my room! SO HARD TO SHOOT IN THERE MANG

THAT THING MAY OR MAY NOT BE A REFLECTOR

SO THIS IS MY ROOM THUS FAR

We were both working on art!

REBECCA IS AMAZING

Dinner with the floorbros. THE GIRLS ARE HIDDEN. And look at Patrick. LOOK INTO THE EYES.

Color homework was to design a poster on the Munsell color system. Elliot's looks better.

SETHRADER. His hair was quite spiffy that day. HE WAS INTENSELY SCROLLING THROUGH TUMBLR.

Hahaha a good luck study charm!

the pink flowers turned into fruits....

I was fascinated by this tree. So instead of eating lunch, I drew it. (AND WAS VERY HUNGRY AFTERWARDS)

still a WIP!

Ohay Kristyn. TYPE class!

Walking back from type with Brianda and Valentina. A light fog had rollllled in.

Elliot got a new lens!

I LIKE REFLECTIONS, OKAY?

ALOT.

We attempted to follow VASA home. But he only went home to his office. THE MYSTERY WILL REMAIN UNSOLVED. FOR NOW.

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Went to LACMA with Rebecca! I needed to see an artwork for my art history class.

WE BUS'ED IT.

ADVENTURE TIME ONCE AGAIN

LIGHTS!?

LAMPS?!

WHAT WHAT WHAT AM I LOOKING AT

THIS PAINTING

I WANT TO PAINT LIKE THIS.

kiss kiss fall in loveeeee. I want to draw this.

CRAZY

I RATHER ENJOY THIS STYLE

DAT MIRROR

OHEY

A STUDENT OF VASA'S?!

SHE TOUCHED IT SHE'S GONNA GO TO JAIL

'''

WOOPWOOPWOOP

WHAT A ROMANTIC SPOT

...looks familiar

ALIEN ABDUCTION

MAD SCIENTIST

OHAI

ADVENTURING IN SERRA'S SCULPTURE

DANCING IN SERRA'S SCULPTURE

paper hair? hmmmm

wooosh

We drew people on the bus on the bus ride back! But before it came, we made up stories for the people in the cars driving by. And a racist crazy woman hit us with a paper box. She spoke bad, bad things. I felt sorry for her : /

gotttttt backkkk and had a heart to heart with Albert. Crazy how you can do everything right but everything goes wrong. But he did the right thing. The heart is too delicate. I HOPE YOU FEEL BETTER MAN.

and then Tina came innnnn and she stole my boyfriend.

takin' photos

thennnn had brunch with Celia! SHE'S AN AMAZING ROOMMATE I LOVE HER

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Went on a photowalk with Elliot! UCLA IS TOO LIMITING. Even during golden hour. And both of us are pros at blocking the camera so portraiture is almost totally out of the question.

RESORTED TO PLANTS AND PRETTY LIGHTING

and long shutter speeds

roseeeemary

awwwwwwww

The sun is under his armpit

"Are you taking a photo of me?"
"no."
"LIES"
bahihihihi

I'M TAKING A PICTURE OF THE LENS, OKAY?

Thennnn he talked to me about God. And we went to bible study with Passionchurch!

I need to be able to open up more. Ahhhhhhhhhh

OFFWORLD + Photo Walk + p-partay

2011-01-17T21:32:00.000-08:00

OFFWORLD! My very first UCLA show!

OPENING WAS BOMB, TOO BAD I HAD TO LEAVE REALLY SOON.

hurrrr

THIS WAS SO COOL

THEN I WENT WITH PHOTO CLUB TO GO TO ARTWALK IN DOWNTOWN LA!

SAW COOL GALLERIES. LOLJOHN

DAT HAIR

WE ATE FROM FOOD TRUCKS!

BLUECANVAS!

SHE LOOKED LIKE A FAMILIAR MODEL/ACTRESS

SOMEONE PLEASE TEACH ME HOW TO DO THIS

TATTOOS

SO CUTE, I DIED

IT WAS ROLLING AROUND

BIKES

BOKEH!

MORE BOKEH

I HAVE SEEN THIS BEFORE...

OHGOD 2008

ZEUS BOUGHT LITTLE CAKES! THEY TASTED KINDA WEIRD.

WE DROVE BACK WITH ZEUS. HE DIDN'T KNOW WHERE HIS CAR WAS IN THE GARAGE, SO HE SET OFF THE PANIC ALARM. AND IT WORKED. HE RAN A RED LIGHT VERY VERY SLOWLY. HE WENT DOWN THE WRONG WAY OF A ONE WAY STREET AND WE WENT AGAINST TRAFFIC. HE DROVE US TO PASADENA. I THOUGHT I WAS GONNA DIE. BUT WE GOT BACK SAFELY ENOUGH!

SO TIREDDD

CROSSEYED

~~~
we went to a partay! THAT WAS AT A CHINESE RESTAURANT HAHAHAA

SO MANY ASIANS

I DON'T EVEN

BUT IT WAS FUN! JUST DANCED WITH THE GROUP. REMEMBER THE TWO CREEPS AND HOW THEY KEPT ON COMING BACK. EVERY. SONG.

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WANDERED AROUND CAMPUS ONE DAY! GOT BOOKS FROM POWELL. OH, AND HAD LUNCH WITH ERICA! AND WANDERED AROUND. YES. TALKS ABOUT LOVE.

MURAKAMI <3

I PROMISE I WASN'T CREEPING ON THESE PEOPLE I DIDN'T EVEN NOTICE UNTIL I LOOKED AT THE PICTURE LATER

OH, AND I MOVED.

INTO A DOUBLE! AND WITH CELIA. WHO IS SOOO NICE.

I'M SO HAPPY.

LIFE IS FINALLY 100% AGAIN!

ALA 2011

2011-01-17T20:46:00.000-08:00

ALA WAS BOMB THIS YEAR. AMAZINGLY BOMB.

On FRIDAY Wilson picked me up from UCLA and we went to trader joe's and home depot for supplies! I SPRAY PAINTED MY SPEAR PVC PIPE IN THE PARKING LOT. Dropped stuff off at the con (rooming with Crystal and Tiffany!)

Ran into CHAMP and Sierra!

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and took photos with Tako, Hope, Aku, and Setsu. YOU GIRLS ARE SO FUN TO HANG OUT WITH!

AKU WHY SO FLAWLESS

THEN SHOT WITH WILSON.

WORK IT

THEN SHOT WITH SETSU AND HAKUUUU

HAD FUN IN THEIR ROOM WOOO. Got back pretty late, the bed never felt so goooood
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DAY 2

COSPLAYED ODIN SPHERE WITH CRYSTAL!

THANKS RICKY!!

I LOVE THESE SHOTS

WE STAYED OUTSIDE FOR A VERY VERY LONG TIME. WE FROZE. FOR THE PHOTOSSS

TWO OTHER PHOTOGS HAVE YET TO GET BACK TO ME!

CHANGED OUT OF ODIN SPHERE AND I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT I DID FOR A COUPLE OF HOURS...

BUT I RAN INTO CAMILLE, IRIS, JIMMY, DUSTIN, AND JIMMY!

BHAHAHA DUSTIN

D'AWW

WE SANG ON THE BALCONY

HAHAHA

HOW DO I TAKE PHOTOS

SETSU <3

LOVEYOUGUYS

LOVELY ROOMMATE TIFFANY

ENTOURAGE HAHAHA

BAHAHHA

RAN INTO DAN AND HIS GIRLFRIEND. CRAZY HOW WE LIVE SO CLOSE AND HOW I USED TO ASSOCIATE HIM WITH THE FAR NORTH.

THEN DID A SHOOT WITH KEI, ERICA, AND CRYSTAL!

AND A SHOOT WITH...

THEN I GOT REALLY SICK.

SO I RETIRED EARLY AND WASN'T ABLE TO GO TO CHLOE'S PARTY. LESIGHHH

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DAY 3

CLEANED UP THE ROOM, CHECKED OUT, WANDERED AROUND YESSS

MUAH

RIGHT AS I WAS ABOUT TO LEAVE, I RAN INTO EVERYONE AGAIN! I LOVE YOU ALLLL

THEN WENT HOME. ALA WAS AMAZING I LOVE YOU ALLLLL

Bits and pieces; color

2011-01-17T20:26:00.000-08:00

This quarter has been good to me so far. I love it.

Been working with Elliot on color homework twice a week! It takes up a sizable chunk of time, but I actually enjoy painting all those squares and triangles much more than I did for drawing.

50% black + 50% white =\= 50% gray hahaha

type work! Type is pretty good too-lecture is a biiiit boring since its stuff we already learned from illustrator/photoshop, but the critiques are interesting. Trigo's kind of a boss too.

epic sky!

RED HILLS. Painted with Rebecca!

PERFECT SQUARES

type again! playing with sizes this time.

THAT MAY OR MAY NOT BE SETH'S NOSE

WHAT AN EXOTIC NAME. Walking back with Valentina via the Anderson SHORTCUT.

sky was amazing too!

and a draaawing

Painting again! (HIS WAS PERFECT)

iphone video whatttt

a paintingggg

Shadows!

After class, we saw the desma undergrad show "OFFWORLD" before anyone else was there! (then had lunch. GRAPEFRUITS.)

Lovely Bloodflow from BATHS on Vimeo.

BEST VIDEO THERE IMO

I ENJOY THESE DAYS.

scattered

2011-01-10T10:15:00.000-08:00

a rush of nostalgia just hit me.

I feel pensive.

AP world. AP US. Ms. Bailey. -why am I remembering this now?

hummmmm. I miss it. But I'm glad to be here.

I've been sitting here trying to recall a dream-but I don't know if I even had one.

hmmmm.

I hope you enjoy our time together as much as I do. I tend to clam up in an unfamiliar environment with strangers. I wish I could relax and be my usual (crazy) self. What's holding me back? sighhh

I had a lot of fun at ALA. I love you guys.

I'll do an entry on that soon enough. After I finish all this art history reading.

Why can I be that outgoing at conventions and not here at school?

hmmmmm.

TIME FOR CLASS!

Rest of break recap + school again!

2011-01-05T23:38:00.000-08:00

We went skiing!

PICUNRELATED

SKIIED AT BOREAL.

WENT TO CIRCUS CIRCUS, JANET'S DAD WON HER ANOTHER ONE OF THOSE BEARS..HAHAHA

MY SISTER WON ALL THOSE HERSELF

BUAHAHAHA SO CUTE

First double black diamond at Donner Ski Ranch! IT WASN'T SO BAD

yayayayaya

JEANINE'S PRESENT. <3

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MET UP WITH VIVIENNE.

=

YES.

HE WAS BRILLIANT.

DAT SECURITY LINE

REBECCA'S PRESENT

SO CUTE

TYPOGRAPHY CLASS

MY FIRST ASSIGNMENT. SHE LOVED IT.

BOOKS!

DID COLOR HOMEWORK WITH ELLIOT TODAY

AN IMPERFECT SQUARE.

WORKING ON MY THIRD ONE...I MESSED UP RIGHHT AFTER THIS WAS TAKEN HAHAHA

MISTA CHOI

I ACTUALLY HAD NO IDEA WHAT I WAS DOING.

WHILE HE WAS WASHING OUR SUPPLIESSSS

ITS GOOD TO BE BACK!

2011 Resolution

2011-01-01T01:06:00.000-08:00

MMM RECAP ON THE YEAR IN A BIT.

I resolve to...

-Get a job/workstudy
-do a weekly full page spread in sketchbook (AT LEAST WEEKLY)
-go out and shoot moreeee + actually have shoots with themes/concepts
-learn how and when to keep my mouth shut. and when to speak.
-LOSE 20 LBS (HAHAHA its this every single year...)
-put 100% of my energy in EVERYTHING I do.
-Finish reading all of Haruki Murakami's works
-Make a short film. (or several)
-Reduce swearing
----I'll add more tomorrow morning

sketch dump + holidays + Lindsay shoot + grandfather

2010-12-29T01:42:00.000-08:00

12.15.2010

12.24.2010

12.24.2010

12.26.2010

12.26.2010

sizing! Tonya was surprised at how small these sketches actually are. All done in the large-sized moleskine.

Ahhhhhh! Finally able to get these out of my headd. Feels good to draw again, mang.

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Picking up from the last picspam post--

Went to V's house with Tonya and Nick to hang out!

BUNNY WITH BUNNY SLIPPERS = HUMAN WITH HEAD SLIPPERS. THINK ABOUT IT.

We hung ornaments that represented each of us. THIS ONE IS SAM. IN THE BACK AND IN THE CORNER. Never to be seen again.

Jeanine ALSO IN THE BACK.

Alan. bahihihihii.

circles and squares!

We played apples to apples with custom cards. SO FUN.

dinner

Where most of my winter break has been spent. DO YOU SEE THAT OLD BLANKET THAT IS FRAYING AT THE ENDS? I've had that since BIRTH. I can't sleep without it. My parents call it puo bei (literally "crappy/trashy blanket) and they used to say that it would be really embarrassing if I brought it to college with me. AND IN THE END, I DID. (I brought it home for winter break though!)

ps my sister sleeps like a starfish and so do I SO IT IS A BATTLE TO NOT FALL OFF THE BED.

Elliot says that he can get to the top of Olivia's "favorite Julia friends" list and have her like being photographed again. WE SHALL SEE.

my meeaaat balllll

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LUNAR ECLIPSE

Dragged my old telescope out to watch the red moon, realized I was missing pieces on the eyepiece so I had to tape the lens on...AT LEAST IT STILL WORKED. Too bad the moon itself was too small to photograph :T Took a bunch of long exposure shots of the sky instead!

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Met up with Lindsay and took photos~ I was...really uncreative that day. I need to think of concepts like how I did THAT ONE TIME. orzzzz

I fell down the hill right before this shot LOL. It was a pretty steep hill with dead underbrush all around...I slipped on some wet leaves and one leg kiiiiicked way up and I fell on my back and slid down the hill HAHA. BUT MY CAMERA WAS UNHARMED.

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FISHEYE?!

I bought a transparent Christmas orb at Michael's on a whim (MAYBE THIS WILL BE USEFUL FOR COSPLAY). Turns out that it KINDA works like a fisheye? kinda kinda notreally...

BUT it gets Diana-like effects if you put it over the lens!

ohai
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HAD DINNER WITH MADDIEEEE.

Thai food is ALMOST my favorite.

Starbucks on a winter's night...AND I GET A FROZEN DRINK. (dohoho I am so smart. and it had milk in it. EVEN SMARTER).

We watched the FIGHTER, shopped around a bit and ran into her friends and ex. DOHOHO AWKWARD MOMENTS. It was good seeing her again though!

shipped out Jeanine and Cassie's presents a few days ago!

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Partaaay at our house!

THERE WERE 30 PEOPLE PRESENT

so many chinese I don't even

but the food was REALLY good that day. We're still finishing the leftovers hahaha

ohei tonyaaaa

T-THEY ARE ALL THE SAME.

LOL

Olivia may or may not be a pro at Angry Birds.

AND SHE MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE RECORDED HERSELF SINGING JINGLE BELL ROCK

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Driving. This little green bug clung on to the outside of my window for 30 miles...Impressive.

Blue skies and green hills. WHY I LOVE NORCAL.

We went to V's house in attempts to work on cosplay. BUT NO MOTIVATION. And there was only V's devil sewing machine. So we just loafed around until Tonya and Nick showed up (2 hours) later.

WENT TO JOANNS

V got SOME progress done...Nick is modeling it.

I FOUND THOSE GLASSES! Only $2.50.

We went to Popeye's! MY PARKING JOB WAS HORRENDOUS. FIRST TIME EATING POPEYE'S.

Played Cranium for the rest of the night.

30 seconds after it was revealed to be a bear skin rug;

V's mom: "OH, I KNOW. ITS A FISH!!" orz

ITS A NA'VI

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So, my grandfather. Right after we finished our holiday party, my parents and I were all cleaning up, talking about how it was successful and how everyone was pretty happy and all that. It was really nice, just talking to my parents (its been a LONG time since we had time to do that). Annnd then, we got the call from the doctors in China. My grandfather is sick again. The fever that had started the day after my dad returned to the states turned into something muuuch worse. From what I could pick up from my dad's conversation on the phone, my grandpa's liver and kidneys were infected and he had fallen into a coma again. The doctors wanted to put him in the ICU, and my grandma (who is a doctor and the ONLY reason why he's still alive) refused since she wouldn't be able to do anything or even see him if he was sent there. My dad's going back in a few days. Ahhhhhh. My grandpa's been having problems since 2003 (when he had his first stroke) and he hasn't been able to speak since 2008. Each time he gets sick, he gets farther and farther from how he used to be. Right now, he can't recognize ANYBODY and can't speak or move on his own anymore. Its been especially difficult on my dad since he's their only child and he has the factory to look after AND us in the states. Sigh. My grandpa basically raised me as a kid (Dad was busy with work and mom was busy with baby Angela) and as a kid I NEVER appreciated him. My grandpa is the kindest person I (and everyone else who knows him) know. He used to give me DaBaiTu (white rabbit) candies if I had been good. He'd tell me the ONE story he knew again and again(or START to, I'd always interrupt him or he'd not continue)- "last night, there were two little black cats outside---". I wonder how that story would have continued or ended. Or if it had an ending at all. Sigh.

14 years ago.

Dream; underwater + Jeanine

2010-12-24T14:15:00.000-08:00

HMMMM I'M NOT TOO SURE ABOUT THE ORDER IN WHICH THINGS HAPPENED. But here we go-

Jeanine and I had decided to embark on an adventure to this underwater...theme park. Not REALLY a theme park but...I don't know how else to describe it. To get there, we went on highway 24 and then to the highway to San Francisco, BUT WE WENT VIA INNER TUBE. The highway was much more narrow and was basically a slide with water running down it (I think it was raining too). At first it was easy going, but it got REALLY FAST (just like that crazy waterslide at Waterworld that burned all our backs LOL). I could feel my stomach dropping at each dip and I actually woke up at this point because of the falling sensation (I kicked my legs up irl haha). Fell back asleep and it jumped to the theme park, which was in a fictional part of SF, but I knew it was in SF. It was nighttime when we reached it; the streets were shining and reflecting back the city lights, and there was a light fog (the tall theme-park building (looked like a transparent skyscraper) was right on the water's edge). From outside, you could see the HUGE aquarium inside-I think this was heavily influenced by that one tumblr picture here We went in and went into the (really plain) changing rooms. We went to the door that lead to the "park" (the door was on the ceiling...) and we were standing there for awhile wondering where to leave our clothes and things (I remember worrying becauset I couldn't bring my ipad with me into the water LOL). An elderly lady with one of those flower-swim caps talked to us for a bit ("I've been doing this every day for the past 40 years! Just kick the sharks in the face") and then she went up and away through the air and outside. But the outside was...underwater...like, really really deep underwater. There was a cable with christmas lights attached to it (I thought of bokeh instantly HAHA) that was supposed to guide us to the top (so I guess the main attraction was just to follow the cable upwards and get to the surface?). We finally got the guts to go through the door and we started swimming towards the top. THERE WERE SHARKS. So many sharks that we couldn't go upwards without scraping against them (and it really really hurt). At one point, we wanted to turn back because the surface was so far away, but the door back was gone (and the christmas light cable was just floating around with no anchor). We finally reached the surface (looked like what the Bahamas look like in commercials), but when we looked at each other, we had both turned into old ladies HAHAHAA. With flower swim caps.

Don't remember the rest!

Oh yes, and all through this dream, I could hear indistinct murmuring in the background. It may have been my family talking. This dream happened...pretty late in my sleep cycle...It was already bright outside when I woke up halfway through it.

Black Swan + Fabric Shoppannng + THE FIGHTER

2010-12-24T01:04:00.000-08:00

SO. I went to SF with Tim to go fabric shopping and watch Black Swan! Black Swan was...really intense. I haven't felt that mentally drained from a movie EVER before. It wasss kind of predictable and I feel like they could have done more with it BUT I throughly enjoyed it (even though I was covering my eyes...through a lot of it).

THEN WE WENT TO CASTRO TO GET SANDWICHES

Muni for the first time

WE HAD TO RUN TO THE MUNI-TRAM BECAUSE I STALLED WITH THIS PHOTO

STILL FREAKED OUT FROM BLACK SWAN

castro station!

c-c-castro

dang.

waited 30 minutes for these sandwiches. IT WAS WORTH IT.

walked forever for this fabric shop.

WILD POKEMAN APPEARED

HM....

I'LL FINISH THIS LATER

another dream; Late to Vasa's COLOR class

2010-12-20T16:50:00.001-08:00

HMM Two vivid dreams in a row? Hmmmm...

It was the first day back at school! But...it didn't really look like campus much at all (even though it was). Rather, it looked like a combination of places from my middle school (which was very, very beautiful) and...probably images of the East Coast or suburban England from tumblr. There was a very folksy-hipster feel to the landscape. SO I think I was chatting with some people up until an hour before class in some grassy hill by a building (looks like side of middle school) when I realized I had to go to class. It was specifically VASA's color class. I started walking back to campus (but instead of usual campus scenery, its England). I pass through an...antique moleskine specialty shop...Where the store was elevated about 4 feet off the ground and had really wide stairs leading up to it. I went inside to pick up art supplies, but they didn't have any so I left and considered taking the bus back to campus. But because of all the times I've attempted to take the bus in this dream world unsuccessfully (I've been fine with taking the campus bus IRL; there was only one failed attempt) I decided to walk back. Buuuut I was really really far away, so I started to run back. The sensation of running and getting really tired was really vivid; I could feel the coppery taste at the back of my dry mouth and the ache in my chest and the cramp in my shoulder from my heavy bag. I ran through old warehouses that were vermilion from the rust (meat packing plants that were abandoned perhaps? I wasn't afraid of running through these warehouses, even though I would have normally been terrified). I finally reached the art building (but it wasn't exactly right...it was only like 3 stories tall instead of 8) and I rannnnn up the stairs to the classroom and then the dream ended.

DREAM

2010-12-20T02:05:00.000-08:00

ALRIGHTY LETS TRY TO GET THIS DOWN BEFORE IT DISAPPEARS FOREVER.

Its actually 2am right now and I've had the whole day to "forget" this dream BUT I still remember it pretty clearly, which is rare.

ANYWAYS

I was...in a pseudo Asia. I was still dorming with those two in that dream, but our room was MUCH smaller and was super super dark. I was tired of being in there, so I went outside. Instead of our usual hallway...there was a labyrinth of bamboo poles that made up a hallway (but they were spaced so that you could look through them and see outside) that was REALLY high up (ground was no where in sight and the other stories around our hallway was dizzying). I walked around for quite awhile in that hallway (it forked many many times and I didn't really pay attention to where I was going (I had no destination)until I got to this HUGE open space. All of the hallways converged and you could see the mountains that were amazingly huge/tall next to the openings of the hallways. The mountains were yellow and green (color scheme of the mountains is similar to the bamboo coloring in "Tarzan")and there was a light mist. The shape of the mountains...was like huangshan or guillin...but it was much, much higher. The sky was a misty grey/white...like there was only a light fog between the sun and the earth (so it made for beaaautiful lighting hahaha). ANYWAYS, in this dream I looked at the mountains for quite a while (my view was sweeping and wasn't just confined to where I was standing in the dream). Then...I think I went to try to find my way back to my room, but ALAS with all the hallways that looked the same, I couldn't have hoped to find it, so I found a new one. In that new one, I ran into some Chinese cosplayers that I knew OF but didn't know TOO well...So in the dream, I stayed over with them for a few hours in their dark dark room. They were making dolls...and the dolls had wigs and these really eerie beady eyes (these dolls were miniatures of themselves). One of the girls had a dark blue wig (bob cut) on, and her doll was matching (I REMEMBER THIS VERY CLEARLY. I left that room..and I fell...? DON'T REALLY REMEMBER but I ended up at the very very bottom of the labyrinth on some kind of safety net right above the water (the sky was blue now and the sun was BLAZING) and Olivia was there with me. I like...strapped her to my back and I started crawling up the safety net to get to higher ground again. We finally reached the top of the safety net and we tried to take a bamboo elevator (LIKE GEORGE IN THE JUNGLE LOL) to the upper levels BUT this old lady didn't let us so we had to go down again and try to find another way up. We went into this...courtyard? (looks like the ones in LiJiang) There was a waterway and the stone underfoot was worn and super smooth. There was an Indian man, an Italian man, and...a hippo (but it was just in the background for a while). I tried to ask them for directions back to the upper levels, but...the Italian got angry...and he started yelling...the hippo came out of its spot, started charging (I remember feeling knee-softening fear when I saw the hippo charge.) I graaaabbed my sister, and we ran up the stones and like...along a wall that had ivy on it.

DON'T REMEMBER MUCH MORE!

But now I know FOR SURE I dream in color. Not sure about sound though!

I think...I will draw this out...as environment practice haha.

HANGING OUT WITH REBECCA!

2010-12-17T22:25:00.000-08:00

IT WAS A GLORIOUS TWO DAYS.

What we did--
-met up in Westfield mall, ate DELICIOUS MEAT
-took bus to Golden Gate Park
-EXPLORED
-bus to japantown
-walk around and ate dinner
-bus back to Westfield/H&M shopping shopping
-bart back home-both dead asleep (I had a dream!)
-GIRRRRL TALK (about boys haha)
-ATE ALL THE DESSERTS/foot massage machine
NEXTDAY
-attempt at eggs
-LOLPARKINGLOLCREPES
-Tangled!!!!

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SO WE MET UP AT WESTFIELD AND WE HAD BUCKHORN GRILL FOR LUNCH! IT WAS DELICIOUS

FOREVER FATTY

Then we waited on the wrong side of the road (DOHOHOHOHO) for the bus BUT LUCKILY WE DID NOT GET ON THAT BUS. We took the #5 to the Deyoung entrance of Golden Gate Park!

SUDDENLY, FOREST

SUDDENLY, REBECCA

We went to the Deyoung in hopes of seeing the museum BUT ALAS they were unexpectedly closed to..."nonstudents". SO IT WAS JUST A BUNCH OF ELEMENTARY SCHOOL KIDS IN THERE WITH ALL THEIR CHAPERONES. If we had just shuffled in with one of the groups...we probably could have gone in hahahaa...

WE STILL TOOK PICTUERS OUTSIDE THOUGH

HAHAHAH

HURHUR

buahahahahAHHAHAA

FOOD!?

WE PRETENDED WE WERE LARPERS THAT DAY. METAAAAA

HURDUR

WE BRIEFLY CONSIDERED GOING INTO THE TEA GARDENS. BUT IT WAS EXPENSIVE. SO WE DECIDED TO MAKE ART RIGHT OUTSIDE OF IT LOL

ANDY GOLDSWORTHY?!

MADE WITH OUR HANDS

WE FOUND A LOVELY FOREST

LALALALALA

WE FOUND FLOWERS

AHAHHAHA LOOKS ALL PEACEFUL BUT IN REALITY SHE WAS TEARING THEM OFF

STICKIN' ALL THE FLOWERS IN MAI HAIR (HELLO INSECTS)

M-M-MORE FOOD?!

ITS A STRAWBERRY!!! (no)

the very same FLOWARH

AND WE WALKED AROUND STOWE LAKE, TALKING ABOUT LIFE. AND LOVERS. AND MOCHIS.

LOOK, FLOWERS.

and here SHE TOLD ME THE STORY OF THE LOVERS AND THE MOCHI

REBECCA SEDUCED A SQUIRREL

WA HA WE FOUND A BRIDGE

JOY

A-A-ART?!

make a WISHHH

OOOOHOOOO

I DON'T EVEN

WE DRANK FROM THIS. It tasted like dirt.

BIRDS, COME TO ME

FOAM?! M...MORE FOOD?!

EGRET

COME BACK TO ME

I WILL LOVE YOU FOREVER

PLEASE DON'T LEAVE ME BABYYYY (THIS DUCK REMINDS ME OF MY GWENDOLYN HIP WINGS)

SHE MAY OR MAY NOT HAVE BEEN DANCING

WE FOUND BIG STICKS. F-FINAL FANTASY?!

I SEE MORDORRRRR

BAHRNG

MORE FOOD!

SO WE GAVE UP ON GOING ALL THE WAY TO THE BEACH BECAUSE WE WERE REALLY TIRED. SO WE BUSED BACK TO JAPANTOWN, WALKED AROUND, LOOKED AT BOOKS, THEN HAD DINNER AT MIFUNE.

but of COURSE WE PURIKURA'D

cold soba MAY JUST BE MY FAVORITE

HURDUR

AND THEN WE HAD FRO YO

BUSSED BACK TO WESTFIELD...FOUND CUPCAKES

CUPPPPCAKESSS

H&M! WE WENT THERE INSTEAD OF GOING TO SEE THE BLACK SWAN.

AND THEN WE WENT BACK. AND WE BOTH TOTALLY FELL ASLEEP ON BART. I HAD A DREAM. I WAS STILL ON BART (AWAKE) BUT THE CAR WAS FILLED WITH PEOPLE I KNEW, BUT THEY WERE IN THE "ROLES" OF THE TYPICAL PEOPLE I SEE ON BART (THE WORKING PROFESSIONALS, THE SCHOOL DITCHERS, THE COLLEGE STUDENTS, THE CRAZIES, THE LADIES WITH THEIR KINDLES, ECT). THE ONE I REMEMBER MOST VIVIDLY WAS ELLIOT, WHO WAS DOING HIS O___O FACE (REMEMBER PING PONG WITH JISOO AND HIM). WHEN I "SAW" IT, I LAUGHED IN MY SLEEP AND I WOKE MYSELF UP. (I HAVE A HABIT OF DOING THIS)

MY MOM PICKED US UP FROM THE STATION. OLIVIA TALKED NONSTOP (AS SHE ALWAYS DOES AROUND GUESTS) UNTIL LIKE...MIDNIGHT. WE HAD HAAGENDAAZ AND USED THE LEG/FOOT MASSAGE MACHINE. THEN WE WENT UPSTAIRS TO TALK ABOUT LIFE. AND BOYS. MOSTLY BOYS. HURRRRHUR

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IN THE MORNING WE ATTEMPTED EGGS.

...

... 8I

WE DO NOT SPEAK OF THE EGGS. (BUT THEY TASTED GOOD)

AND THEN WE WENT (I DROVE) TO GO SEE TANGLED AND GET CREPES! I WAS DUMB AND WAS LIKE LETS BUY TICKETS FIRST AND THEN LETS GET CREPES AND COME BACK. BUT IT WAS A TUESDAY MORNING. WHEN EVERYONE WAS STILL IN SCHOOL. SO OF COURSEEE IT WAS TOTALLY UNNECESSARY. WASTED 30 MINUTES AND WE HAD TO RUSH FOR CREPES (WHICH WERE STILL GOOD). LUCKILY WE WEREN'T LATE FOR THE MOVIE WOOOOOOOO. MADE ME CRY A SECOND TIME. SIIIIIIGH (of contentment) THEN I SENT HER HOME. T'WAS A GOOD TIME.

(DEAD + FINALS WEEK)

2010-12-14T18:11:00.000-08:00

LOL DEADWEEK FOR ME. SO FREAKING BUSY

HIGHLIGHTS;
-LUNA SEA
-PHOTOWALK WITH SETH
-ALICE COLTRAINE TRIBUTE CONCERT
-PARADISE LOST (PLAY)

SO I WENT ON A PHOTOWALK WITH SETH.

KISS KISS FALL IN LOVE.

BEING ON THAT ROOF THAT DAY WITH THAT GLORIOUS SUNSET. I WILL REMEMBER FOR A WHILE.
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HAD LAST KENDO PRACTICE. MAKINO SENSEI AND SAN WERE THERE AND WE...HAD A PSEUDO TOURNAMENT. TONY AND GRACE TIED FOR FIRST PLACE SO MAKINO SENSEI HAD THEM DECIDE IT THROUGH ROCK PAPER SCISSORS. AND HE TRIED TO EXPLAIN IT TO US. HE WAS REALLY HAPPY WHEN WE GAVE HIM HIS BELATED BIRTHDAY CARD (FIRST TIME I'VE SEEN HIM LAUGH!). HE LIKED MY KIAI.

OHAIGRACE

THEN WE ALL WENT TO BCAF/1919, WHERE WE FOUND OUT THAT I HAD PREMIER. SO I SWIPED EVERYONE IN. AND TONY (OUR CAPTAIN) USED...6 SWIPES. ALL ON PANINIS. LOLOLOLOLOL

I LOVE MY KENDO TEAM

We had a party for the kendo team on Saturday after the Luna Sea concert!
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LUNA SEA

WENT WITH VI-AHN. PARTNERED WITH TOMO (SHE'S AWESOME).

IT WAS GLORIOUS.

THEY PLAYED ALL MY FAVORITES (EXCEPT FOR LOVE SONG ;__;). INORAN SAW TOMO AND I JUMPING WAAAY TO THE SIDE AND HE POINTED AT US BOHOHOHOHO. SUGIZO IS STILL THE BEST AT VIOLIN. J LOOKS KOREAN NOW. AND RYUICHI IS NO LONGER YOUNG. BUT HIS VOICE IS STILL AMAZING. SIGHHH IT WAS A GOOD NIGHT.
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ALICE COLTRAINE TRIBUTE CONCERT

T'was a spur of the moment decision! I got free tickets from DESMA and decided to go (even though I had a final that week durhuhuhuhu)

It was lightly raining when I left, but by the time I reached Wooden, it was pouring. Running around totally alone in the square in front of Janss Steps in the pouring rain...is quite the experience haha. I ended up totally soaked. I gave my two extra tickets to a couple who left their's at home.

THE FIRST HALF SOUNDED SO GOOD THAT IT PUT ME TO SLEEP. I have a problem of falling asleep...ESPECIALLY during concerts...I was falling in and out of sleep-I'd wake up when everyone started clapping and stayed awake through...5 minutes of the first bit of the song/performance AND THEN I'D WAKE UP AGAIN FROM THE CLAPPING. BUT I WAS AWAKE DURING THE SECOND HALF.(which was amazing)

I WROTE LETTERS FOR A DAY AND I FOUND MY ALPACA STICKERS FROM JAPAN. ON MY PHONE THEY GOOOOO

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STUDYING FOR ANTHRO33 WITH VRINDA AND MAIKO. WE STUDIED HARD ALL NIGHT (AND GOT RENDEZVOUS FOR THE FIRST TIME)

ANTHRO 33 FINALLL

I FELT SO LIBERATED AFTER IT.

GELATO WITH MY WONDERFUL FLOORMATES

CHRISTIAN FELL ASLEEP ON JUSTIN'S BED. AGAIN. (HE FALLS ASLEEP ON EVERYONE'S BED BUT HIS OWN)

WE PLAYED SARDINESSSS!

AHAHAHHA JOHN.

THEY WERE ALL HIDING IN THE CLOSET.

SO YOU CAN FIT TWO PEOPLE IN THE TOP CLOSET.

ALL IN THE SHOWER LOLOL

EDY WAS BEHIND THE DESK YUCEN WAS STUDYING AT LOL

MATT AND HIS MASSAGES. CAUGHT IN THE ACTTTTT

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LAST MEAL AT UCLA

LEFT THE NEXT DAY WITH EDY! MY COUSIN DROVE US TO THE AIRPORT. I FOUND OUT THAT MY FLIGHT WAS REVERSE BOOKED. OH, GOOD TIMES.

Disconnection in 3....2....

2010-12-04T00:11:00.000-08:00

and 1.

Its all out in the open. Its kind of amazing what pressure does to people and causes them to act like that. How childish. I don't regret anything. Maybe some things. But I'm glad with the outcome. I've been childish and selfish but I was pushed to it. Its always really high stress isn't it? And the fact that I can't keep my mouth shut or censor what I think or say. Which could be a problem when it hurts people, but I don't want to forget. I need to look back and learn.

Yes, I've made mistakes. Yes, I've done things I shouldn't have done. Yes, I didn't act in a perfect way, that I did at some points stoop to a lower level than how I usually hold myself, but I don't regret anything. It was just a mistake from the beginning. I should have read the signs and acted on them faster. Alas, I guess this can only be turned into a learning experience.

It's time to start over.

And honestly, that is what I've been needing for the time I've been here.

I say that as if everything is wrong, and its not. Just some parts. I'll just start over in those parts. Everything else I did before worked out well and I am happy doing them so I'm going to let them be.

Just be above it all and don't sink to that level.

Why let myself get bogged down by this? Why surround myself with people that have different values and goals (or no goals at all) when there are so many inspired and energetic people out there? Why limit myself?

And back to..

2010-11-28T23:50:00.000-08:00

.....school!

Just got back home from Thanksgiving Break~ Coming back was a paaaain in the butt because I left my WALLET with my driver's license, bruincard (lets me into buildings and has all my meal swipes on it), room card, money, annnnd camera. I flew down from SFO too...so I went through some stuff at security aka being questioned for 10 minutes straight and getting background checks done on me hahaha. BUT in the end, they let me on (thank you!). I luckily had $5 for the ride back to school ($3 in pockets from change and $2 in my camera bag, no more no less) sooo it was all good. Except that I waited an hour and half for the flyaway. BUT THEN, SO DID EVERYONE ELSE. So it wasn't as bad!

mmmMMMMMmmmm

AND THUS THE STREAM OF INCOHERENT NONSTOP TYPING BEGINS

SO I went on a book downloading (legally [free] from ibooks!) spree- lots of Emerson and Thoreau, the two authors that I liked the most in that environmental English class I had in high school. I want to reread it all at my own pace now without the stress of college apps at the same time (which was what was going on at that time). Luckily most of the classics are free (yayayayay saves the trouble of going to a REAL library, the libraries on campus don't REALLY have books for reading-reading) sooo I can continue where I left off at since middle school. (did that make sense?) Mannn I read a tonnnn back then. I guess it was because of those summers in China where I was too young to go out or really appreciate anything around me...so I turned to books. AND because this one store in Vacaville (outlets!) always had a 3 for $10 sale on classic books right before we left for China...so we'd always buy a suitcases' worth of books that I was expected to finish by the end of the summer (and I did). Mooost of the reading happened in my maternal Grandparent's home in Guangzhou, in the tiny tiny apartment (in my grandpa's room! Remember the bamboo cover on the pillows+ mattress and the mosquito netting around the bed and the stacks of language and engineering books in that tiny room. Brown tinted glass on the table with old photographs preserved underneath (I started doing that too after that summer). remember remember remember.

I miss reading. Alot. Its been SO long since I've really read for pleasure. A year? I can't really remember the last book I read on my own...(Tuesdays with Morrie, perhaps?) I'll try to read every night before I sleep now. IT HELPS ME SLEEP TOO. Annnnd everyone knows that that's the thing I've been lacking most lately hahaha.

Oh, sleep. I used to NEED at least 9 hours of sleep to function...now I only "need" 6. COLLEGE, WHY DO YOU DO THIS TO ME. I think I'm adapting to it though, I'm waking up after 6 hours regardless of how my energy level is. I think...I should try to get more sleep, haha. ITS SHOWING ON MY SKIN. bah. I haaave been kinda spotty with the acne medicine this month because we never refill our brita anymore (and I'm too lazy to go out and fill it lateee at night hahaha) or I just forget. Its...getting kind of out of hand...My skin hasn't been this bad since last year (and then it was REALLY bad from the stress of college apps + doing posters + everythannng) and its honestly really... embarrassing. MM NOT THE WORD but I've been avoiding people's eye because of it or being a lot more self conscious or just wanting to be alone more until it goes away. sigh sigh sigh WHY oh WHY am I cursed with these genetics? The same thing goes for weight and metabolism. I gained 5 lbs this month. ITS BEEN MY FAULT THOUGH- too many times I agreed to getting late night with someone or getting bruincafe with the kendo team or just eating really late and not going to the gym and not playing ping pong and ahhh the list goes on. ONCE WINTER QUARTER STARTS, I PROMISE I'LL STEP IT UP. (and the month of December when I'm at home!)

I played ping pong with Harding tonight. I sucked. I haven't played....consistently in a month. I can't remember the last time I went to ping pong practice. BAH WHAT HAPPENED? (actually I do know-midterms and projects and me being a lazy ass). I gotta step it up. What happened to my excitement in the beginning? WHERE DID IT GO? I guess its been hard because you can't really practice on your own and everyone else is busy too. PLUS I have this thing where I feel bad whenever I play against Harding, Elliot, or Jisoo...My level is alot lower than theirs and they're basically only doing me a favor when they practice with me so I've been really reluctant to ask lately. (annnnd Jisoo still doesn't have a phone). I'm afraid of being bad company. I DON'T KNOW WHY but I've been really quiet recently...or whatever I do say, I don't mean, or comes out totally wrong/awkward. whywhywhywhywhyyyy

Regardless, there isn't anything I can/should blame but myself. I need to gain more confidence. That's what everyone always told me. sigh sigh sighhhh.

Change myself...change myself...or find who I was before or who I wanted to be? Honestly, its so easy to get lost here, so easy to just go with the flow and turn into everyone else and let the time slip by. I DON'T WANT TO DO THAT. The few days I had at home sleeping and thinking have been really really good to me. As I lay in bed, I'd plan out things I'd do and at the time, everything made sense again. (BUT I'M BACK HERE AND I DON'T REALLY REMEMBER WHAT I HAD PLANNED OUT. so, so fail).

BUT a rough idea of what I was thinking of doing to get to my "goal self"--

-TED talks;; I loveeee these. love love love. They've opened my eyes to new ways of thinking that make sense. I would really love to discuss the ideas they talk about with someone. (remember the 6 hour debates/conversations with Derrick.) I miss being exposed to new ideas like these!

-reading;;LOLOLOL so general. BUT I'm determined to put the ipad to more use and especially to get into the habit of reading again. (I use the ipad a tonnnn already- all my readings are on it, I skype with it, and...play all those addicting games on it LOL). My writing is deteriorating. I WAS REALLY GOOD AT WRITING AS A KID (I was the young author of my school in second grade up until sixth grade). WHAT HAPPENED.

-conceptart.com;; This site. Everyone's skill level is amazingly high and everyone is so MOTIVATED. I love it. Its not really "competitive" or just for sharing/popularity like deviantART was, but about actual artistic development. There are alot of people who are already in the industry too...it can't hurt to learn from them, right? I'm thinking of participating in some of their weekly "challenges". EVEN IF I don't do a full on digital painting (and I mostly likely won't), I'll try to at least do sketches for it. I would really really like to find an artist friend to join me in this! OR a sketching buddy. or an art buddy in general.

-Christianity;; Alright, this is the biggest/most major one. I guess it all got started when Elliot gave me that talk, then got deeper when I met with the people from his church, and has gotten even deeper still now that I've planned to meet with Rachelle for a "gig" (basically meeting with someone who's already Christian and going through a crash course as to what it is and what it means) starting next quarter. Its...something I have zero experience in and something I never expected myself to get into. BUT I'm really willing to try it out.

brarbghagbgbgbgb SO TIRED GOING TO BED WILL CONTINUE TOMORROW. (WHAT DID I EVEN SAY AND WHOOP THERE GOES AN HOUR)

Shoot with Jessica

2010-11-22T02:50:00.000-08:00

BAHIHIHIHI.

oh, a speedpaint first.

SO YES, I took photos with Jessica today down in Westwood and around campus!

wassup exclusion filters

I dropped my reflector in this puddle ;___;

my favorite

DON'T BE DECEIVED, HE DID NOT HELP IN HOLDING THAT REFLECTOR AT ALL

THANK YOU JESSICA!

PMX+Xiaojun Bday+allnighter+openmic+DESMA+JYJ

2010-11-22T01:19:00.000-08:00

SUCH A BUSY WEEK.

It passed too quickly (I don't even know which classes I went to besides drawing @_@) and feels like nothing happened but PHOTOS SAY OTHERWISE. ANYWHO-

PMX~

I SAW NOBODY AND EVERYBODY AND DID NOTHING BUT DID A SHOOT. I drove up with Jason (who drives in a way that makes me cry) annnnd then I spent 3 hours trying to get my press pass. SUCH A HASSLE, then I found out that my event was on Sunday and I went on Saturday LOL. So...I just took photos of people instead.

so many cape photossss

CASTLEVANIA. The series Jeanine and I wanted to cosplay. (I WOULD LIKE TO DO IT EVEN MORE)

Drove back to go to the Kendo potluck! ONLY 10 PEOPLE WERE THERE AND ONLY 4 WERE FROM THE TEAM BAHAHAHAA. It was fun though! We ate alllll the meat, Tony's sketch pies, played...some board game...and just got to know each other more hahahaha.

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XIAOJUN'S BIRTHDAY

ze surprise

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monday--

I had lunch with Rebecca up in Hedrick! THENNN as we were talking outside of Rendezvous, we ran into Sonny!

TESTING OUT OUR CAMERA'S VIDEEOOO

We talked about...chimps, desma, ART, and other things. THEY'RE AWESOME.

Thennnn when I should have been working on my drawing project, Sonny convinced me that it would be a good idea to go all the way to Broad to talk to the counselor for classes and whatnot...SMARTEST IDEA EVER. It took 5 hours there and back -_--

BUT we explored the film school! such a cool painting *A*

ohmaigah can I hook LEDs up to this and make photossssss

*A*!!!!!

OH, WE ALSO RAN INTO DIANA TOO

Went down to the book sale at Ackerman...and found this. REBECCA?!

WENT BACK UP and had dinner with Maiko! She's a Japanese exchange student (4th year!!) in my anthro class. We both ate til we were stuffed and realized that we both gained weight since coming here hahaha.

THEN I HAD KENDO. UNTIL MIDNIGHT. I HAD MY 15 HOUR DRAWING HOMEWORK TO DO. BUT I LOVE KENDO. TOO MUCH.

I went to bcaf with the rest of the team (as usual) and got a coffee...hahahaha. worst idea in a long, long time. If I have a chocolate chip cookie after dinner, I have trouble sleeping. If I have a coffee in the morning, I'm jittery all day. SO WHEN I HAD COFFEE AT MIDNIGHT, IT MEANT THAT I WASN'T GOING TO SLEEP.

BUT AT LEAST I FINISHED IT. At 4am. Waaaay before I had to wake up. I couldn't sleep so I drew and when the sun came up, I walked to Royce and Broad and then back.

Reminds me of....some condiment jar that we had when I was a really young kid...It was some kind of seasoning...

It was soooo coolllld but I loved it.

Bunche

I sat in the Royce hallway and watched the little birds in the bushes for an hour.

Finished my sketch too~

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Tues-

Went to the LUST lecture. Amazing performance on design media and typography. TOO BAD I FELL ASLEEP. I SAT NEXT TO DAVID THE T.A. TOO. orz

DESMA FED US ONCE AGAIN

WORKED ON MY ANTHRO PROJECT LIKE NO OTHER. BUT GOT DISTRACTED BECAUSE ADAM PERFORMED AT OPEN MIC AND WE ALL WENT DOWN TO SUPPORT HIM!

Adam is kinda the coolest person on our floor.

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Wednesday

I HAD KENDO I LOVE KENDO and Julian (Shotaro) came. BUT ALAS, SO DID NATHAN AND MAKINO-SAN. So Grace and the rest of the team couldn't do our "YOOOO" kiai guy impressions (YOOO man graduated last year, but he had a thing for Julian (the old captain) and his kiai was YOOOO). But it was still a really really fun practice 8D

Diane, Chris, and Sonny and I all talked from midnight to 4am, first in front of cafe 1919, then we moved to the 3south lounge in hopes of running into Elliot (who was supposed to meet us there BUT FELL ASLEEP). We talked about DESMA and the projects we were all doing and what we hoped to do. YOU GUYS ARE SO INSPIRING. I love it. We shared a whole bunch of cool videos too hahaha

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Thursday

Had lunch with Diane and Sonny! We talked about ghosts. SO SKURRY.

had LATE NIGHT with SETHRADER. We had a deep, meaningful conversation that was most excellent.

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FRIDAY

JYJ CONCERTOOO. I drove there with Jennifer WHO IS AMAZING.

It was at USC :I

WE DROVE PAST THE LACC AND THE JW MARRIOT. I THOUGHT OF AX 2010 WHICH WAS THE BEST CON EVER. I MISS EVERYONE. I COULDN'T HELP BUT SMILE AS WE DROVE PAST.

I was really hungry when I got back so I got 1919 and then I went to go hang out with Rebecca who is AWESOME. We made plans for things we were going to do when we go home to norcal :D. First Thursdays museum walks, exploring SF, sleeping over, hiking, meeting up with Jarad, ect ect.

then everyone came in and it was like LOL LETS MAKE THIS A DANCE PARTY. So it was.

We all talked about pokemon airplanes, japan, and our love for norcal. Jarad came in and we listened to his AMAZING music and shared portfolios. YOU TWO ARE SO INSPIRING. lovelovelovelove

Went back downstairs and got killed. -_-

Keni and Loi were still awake so I stayed up with them to talk and play games on adultswim. Zombie hooker attack...is really fun LOL.

all the girls came back from a party and I gave them chocopies.

Everyone else ended up going to bed, but Loi and I stayed up til 6am talking. How can somebody know so much in just the two years of experience he has ahead of me? I'll just listen.

AND WE MADE RAMEN. AT 6AM.

oh, college.

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SATURDAY

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT I DID. I woke up really really really late. and then ate the sketchy pizza that was in the lounge. AND PLAYED ROBOT UNICORN ATTACK ALL DAY LONG WITH KENI.

KENI I'M SO PROUD OF YOU.

THEN PLAYED SOME PING PONG. more like watched. SHOWDOWN BETWEEN JISOO AND HARDING. Where oh where is Elliot?

Went back up and played more robot unicorn....and then we decided to play computer chess because we were getting too stressed out from robot unicorn HAHA. KENI CHEATS AT CHESS LIKE NO OTHER. YOU CAN'T DO UNDO IRL KENI, YOU CAN'T.

Man, I love college.

Bokeh + CLEAR MIND

2010-11-13T00:32:00.000-08:00

Days get clearer and clearer and everything seems to be falling into place as time goes on. I am so, so thankful.

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SO this morning I was preparing to shoot with somebody down in Santa Monica, but alas, she cancelled on me last minute. BUT, it gave me time in the morning to send Prof. Huhtamo an inspirational design blog, which he linked to on the first slide of the lecture (with my name haha) and went through. I got my midterm back, got a 92 (sob sob I'm so happy), and went to Huhtamo's office hours. IT WAS AN AMAZING HOUR. I talked to him about cosplay and mostly visual kei LOL. We are booooth huge japanofiles so we spent most of the time talking about Japan and how awesome Tokyo (2121 design sight!) is. He gave insight that I would have otherwise not gotten about design, and gave me things to think about for my future education (possibly europeeee....? or japaannnnn for grad....?) HUHTAMO IS AMAZING.

I had lunch with Rebecca too! WE ARE ALMOST MIND TWINS (but not as much as Jeanine, but nobody is as my twin as much as Jeanine is BECAUSE WE ARE THE SAME PERSON). It was excellent, as all my lunches with her are. I shall try to hang out with her more in the future hrururururru

Thennnn I went to photo club. WE LEARNED HOW TO DO FANCY SHAPED BOKEH.

Yes.

THEN I met up with Elliot and his friends and we all had dinner together. After we finished, he went to the bathroom or something and I thought that they were all leaving so I left with David (who made fun of everything I did) to walk back up to Rieber, where I got a call from Elliot telling me to come back for the thing I was supposed to go to in the first place LOLOLOLOL. So we ran back AND SO IT COMMENCED.

Things about it to remember:
Teresa is an amazing singer.
David fell asleep.
I never knew people could be so loving to a stranger. I am so, so touched.

I will be back.

I really will post more...

2010-11-11T15:37:00.000-08:00

Its been almost a month since the last post. So much has happened and nothing has happened. The days melt into each other and I find myself losing who I used to be as time goes on. I can't pretend to laugh or smile anymore. I don't want to pretend. But I'm not who I act to be nowadays. I'm so much more bitter and reactive, the smallest things bother me so much more than they used to. I thought coming to UCLA with its sea of people would make me never feel lonely, but I find myself getting more and more lost in that same sea of people. I'm falling into the old pessimism that I thought I got over at the beginning of high school. I guess...most of these feelings are attributed to my own insecurities and my reliance on other's approval. Back in high school, everything seemed to be right; everything I did was met with most everyone's approval. Even the selfless things I did were almost always met with indirect approval. But here...I'm met with almost nothing but opposition. Some of it is necessary; my shortcomings in drawing and ping pong can only push me to work harder, but some things...superficial things, things I cannot help about myself, things I didn't value before...are all things that I'm pressured to conform to. Before coming here, I was pretty self assured about the way I dressed, the way I looked, and the morals I had. I didn't expect that I would face such heavy opposition to the person I was, in the very place I lived. It seems that everyone who comes into this space (the room I live in) is just playing into the superficial farse. What are they trying to do? Do they realize how foolish they look? Its painful to watch them. And its even more painful to realize that I could turn into that the longer I'm in this room. I've never been this lost.

BUT. In spite of all this, there have been people that have been helping me keep my sanity. Last night, Elliot spoke to me. He spoke of things that I have never really heard before because of my background/upbringing, but it all seemed to make sense. I was finally able to get peace of mind for the first time I've been here. I was finally able to sleep. I am so, so thankful.

Just from what I've said above, it sounds like I'm having a horrible time here, which isn't true at ALL. I see alot of potential good friendships that just need more time. I'm busy but its a good busy. Aside from ACA, all my clubs are things that I wholeheartedly want to do and am prepared to commit time to. Last night was the first time I've felt like things were finally going right. It didn't just start with Elliot's talk with me, it started at kendo club. Makino sensei was there, and we had a killer practice...I'm sore even now. BUT, my ki-ai(?) was the loudest out of the entire team and I got Makino-sensei's nod of approval. (WHICH IS INCREDIBLY RARE. SO RARE THAT EVERYONE ON THE TEAM NOTICED AND TOLD ME ABOUT IT LATER.) I mean, yes, I did promise myself to not depend so much on other's approval but...its just really nice to know that I'm doing something right for once and that my hard work is starting to pay off. After practice, we all went to bruin cafe together. I made an effort to talk to the upperclassmen and Grace (who already has bogu but is a first year), and...I'm really really happy that I did. It was 49 degrees and I was wearing shorts and a light jacket outside, but I was incredibly happy. (remember the YOOOO kiai and Mike as Altair).

And there have been other things I've been feeling too...but I think I'm over it! But...as I read over Eric's blog today, I was reminded of it and I guess I don't want to forget what I did feel. He says it better than I could ever say it;

I always say the wrong thing at the wrong time, or miss my chance when I should take it, or fuck up in a manner of massive proportions. Too ambiguous, or too obvious. Too indifferent, or too desperate. Always sliding between the ends of the scales, with nowhere to plant my feet.

I don't know if I should give up or keep trying; I've always been terrible at measuring the feedback from these situations.

All I know is that the disease is spreading. The feeling grows every day, and it must be stopped before it consumes me completely. I realized why I have been sleeping so well recently; I wasn't sick. I was normal, but it's returned. Slowly but surely, it overshadows everything I do. It presents me with the game I could never win, the game that has deceived me over and over at every stage in my life. The peace has left, and I am restless again. Prior to sleep, the disease called hope presents me with so many possibilities. In my mind, the possibilities play over and over. Chaotic and incongruous, like film caught up in the machinery of the projector. I wish I could take the projector and smash it into pieces.

The projector is smashed. But the film keeps rolling.

- http://negativespace.elementfx.com/

But I'm over it. I think. I hope.

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So, a recap on the month. I promise promise to post every two days. I PROMISE. and to take photos of the things I take for granted. I know I'm not going to remember in a few years how exactly I did everything, and this is a time of my life I don't want to forget.

Went on a photowalk with Elliot like...a month ago. I said, lets shoot at 5pm, that's when the light is most beautiful! It turned out to be cloudy. But it was still good. (Here are his photos, I shot with the mamiya)

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random things that I notice in the dining halls; a face made from the water from the bottom of my tray.

Because I went to the ACA club event and Xiaojun also overslept, we missed a day of DESMA10 (Design Culture) that was worth 10% of our grade. So upsetting.

Gavin is kind of a cool guy.

We watched paprika in the lounge!

THEN WE WATCHED SHUTTER.

Kevin is kawaii ugu at hedrick.

so is Harding

Went to go see the "Social Network" (the one about facebook) with floormates.

What happens in our room.

The first time we played with Jisoo (and the first time I really got to know him)

Jisoo's uncle is ranked #8 in the world. CRAZY STUFF. I don't want to forget this night. At around 1am on that sunday night, we started all...going a bit crazy haha. Freestyle ping pong. Elliot's wide eyes. Jumping in the air. I hope I can still recall that night based on just those words.

then the next morning, we had a 7am fire alarm. IT WAS SO COLD.

it rained later that day. we were stuck in Broad.

I was so so so tired. oh, midterms week.

Taking photos in Richard Serra's sculpture.

LOL

Chatting with Vrinda by Janss Steps! We were planning when to study for the Anthro33 midterm later that week, and just got out of Powell from studying, but it was mostly just chatting and getting to know each other. It was the last moment of reprise before midterms week. I basically lived in Powell for the next week.

Right after, I went to my first photo club meeting. A photo walk!

They're a good group of people :D We walked around Westwood and then went to some...beanery? (WHICH HAD NO BEANS)

They went to universal studios that night! But alas, I had a midterm the next morning so I couldn't go, but I did their makeup.

Doing posemaniacs for 2 hours. 30 second sketches!

Kendo club! Nathan Makino was there that day. THUS IT WAS A KILLER WORKOUT.

draaaaawing

Walking back that day was so beautiful

STUDIED AT POWELL WORKING ON DESMA10 MIDTERM WITH DIANE. GOT BACK REALLY LATE. IT WAS SKURRY

Bunche Hall

I DON'T EVEN

I went home for Halloween!

my darlingggg

We drove up to Pt Reyes. And had oysters. They were delicious.

First shots with the Canon 5d mark ii. I LOVE IT.

Studied in Charles E Young. Such a different feeling than Powell. I ran into Court that day!

Sat in Cafe Roma with Asmaa and Ryan for our Anthro33 project. which we did horribly on. alas.

oh diane

First food truck experience. Actually, a boba truck. That night, we wanted to go to the free Far East Movement show. but alas, due to delays and all that, we ended up not going. BUT we did end up having a much needed heart to heart. I became much closer with Jisun and Diane that night. So thankful for that.

We had Fat Sal's too!

Sitting on Janss Step's grass at golden hour, I stayed there until it got too cold. I love it.

One day after playing ping pong with Harding, Elliot, and Jisoo, I came back up...to sheets everywhere and Xiaojun lying naked on the floor with Diane and Natasha taking photos. I WAS WEIRDED OUT LIKE WHOA. Or went through the actions of acting weirded out. In retrospect, I think my reaction was just me thinking that I shouldn't accept something that I did? strange strange but yeah I took photos too LOL.

Jisoo needed to go to LACMA for his art history class, so I went with him. We...kind of...missed the stop and had to go back. I'M SO SORRY. We played Birth By Sleep on the way there (which is why we missed it -__-)

But the museum was amazing! I would like to go back soon.

I remember Ms. Bryan hated this artist.

COOLEST ELEVATOR EVER

Richard Serra's sculptures. I love.

We saw people filming a movie in front of LACMA. SO COOL.

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Yesterday, I had sushi and went to the HAMMER with Chris. We talked alot when we both went down to Copymac on week one, but since we were in different classes (and forgot each other's faces and names LOL) we didn't get to meet up/interact until yesterday. He's a transfer student and older; his insight is astounding.

the gravity was off in this exhibit? IDK

so beautiful

love

lovelovelove

This installation was design media arts in the most true sense, IT WAS SO STRANGE. But I loved it.

Another world in the reflection?

lovelovelovewill visit again.

Until next time!

Drawing class + haircuts + clubbingggg

2010-10-15T20:45:00.000-07:00

POST PROCESSED IN CS5. THANKS ERICCCCC!

Anywho,
Kendo club when everyone's changed out of the uniforms....

I GOT A SHINAI!

drawing class. damn cubes...

jisunnn

Tsup Vasa

walking back to the dorms...it was so beautiful T___T

frands

Ping pong club

BEST PING PONG FRIENDS HARDING AND ELLIOT

We gave Diana a haircut...at 1am...in the laundry room. ONLY IN COLLEGE.

looked pretty good I think!

AND. I went to the ACA clubbing event at the Geisha House...with Eric, Victor, and Anthony....and danced with a guy for the first time... YEAHHH.

moremoremore

2010-10-11T15:34:00.000-07:00

WE WENT TO RALPH'S

so much FOOD

Had a nice long talk with Stephanie : D

HARDING MY FAVORITE PING PONG BUDDAY

TSUP SEPIA TONE

OUR LIVES

HAHAHHA

GAME FACE

BRUIN <3

UCLA FIGHT FIGHT FIGHT

YOUNG AND FAT

FAMILY PORTRAIT

NOW I THINK I'M CAUGHT UP?!

FFFF LIFE RECAP. AGAIN.

2010-10-11T14:33:00.000-07:00

I gotta blog everyday or I'm not gonna remember anyythannnng

WE HAD VOLUNTEER DAY. WENT ON A BUS AND WENT TO MONROE HIGH SCHOOL AND PAINTED MURALS.

MET EDY AND YUCEN! (YAOMING)

Went to Santa Monica with the floor!

we bought plants for the floor BECAUSE WE ARE SUSTAINABILITY

WE TOOK SO MANY PICTURES IN THE APPLE STOREEE

DESMA ORIENTATION! THE DESSERTS WERE BOMB

BRUIN FEST!

I AM THE SAME

WENT TO THE X JAPAN CONCERT. IT WAS AMAZING. THIS GUY WAS AMAZING TOO.

SUGIZO'S UNCLE. I KID YOU NOT.

SING ALONG IN OUR ROOM

DIANE <3

THE CONTEST TO EAT THE HOT CHILI PEPPER. BUT IT TURNED OUT TO BE A MARINATED TOMATO OR SOMETHING LOL

MATT HAD TO CARRY ALL THIS BACK.

PLAYING HOTEL 626 WITH VINCE AND MATT. WE WERE SO SKURRED

Painting pots!

beautiful windowssss

our drawing class

Xiaojun, Ami, and I all have totorossss

BATTLE OF THE T-STICKS

Doing drawing homework~

ping pong club

apples from our first assignment...MINE FELL OFF BECAUSE I FELL DOWN STAIRS.

design culture lecture!

WHAT WE DO DURING THAT LECTURE

line for VAMPS

TOOK A TAXI WITH TWO OTHER GIRLS FROM UCLA

FIRST FOOTBALL GAMEEEE

JESSICA GARRETT AND CHINA. AKA CONCEPTIONNN

D'AWW

IT WAS REALLY REALLY REALLY HOT

LOL VINCE

SO WE LEFT EARLY

WE WENT TO GO EAT KOREAN BBQ THAT NIGHT AND TOOK THE 720

8D

BEST KOREAN BBQ I'VE HAD IN MY LIFE. LIFE.

WE'RE LIKE SOME KIND OF ASIAN GANG

DIDDY RIESE

WOOSH WOOSH

took photos at SCD! (Street Dance Collective) QUEST CREW WAS THERE. (not everyone though)

drawing class

EXPLORING THE BROAD CENTER WHILST WAITING FOR THE DESIGN LECTURE.

CAFE AT BROAD

HIS WORK WAS AMAZING

COLLEGE LIFE

2010-09-28T11:00:00.000-07:00

UPDATE?! GODDAMMIT ITS SO HARD TO KEEP UP WITH A BLOG IN COLLEGE. TOO MUCH HAPPENS BUT NOT ENOUGH HAPPENS FOR ME TO REALLY WRITE AN ONLINE ENTRY ON IT? AND I DON'T HAVE MY CAMERA WITH ME SO ALL I HAVE IS SHITTY CELLPHONE PICS HRNNNNG

CAN I RECAP THIS?

SO WE STARTED FROM NATASHA'S HOUSE. I DROVE 3/4 OF THE WAY TO LA.

THE CAR WAS SO GODDAMMN FULL I'M SURPRISED IT WAS ABLE TO RUN LOL WE SPENT THE NIGHT IN JAPANTOWN, HAD DINNER THERE, AND WENT BACK TO UCLA REALLY EARLY TO MOVE IN!

FIRST DAY: WE PLAYED IN THE REC ROOM.

ON THE FIRST NIGHT WE PLAYED SARDINES IN THE DARRRRRK. I WAS MATT'S PARTNER

ATTEMPTING TO PICK UP OUR FRIDGE. IT TOOK LIKE 3 HOURS LOL

I ALSO HAD LUNCH WITH WILSON! 8D

WE MADE A CAKE FOR DOMINIC

OUR ATTEMPTS TO MERGE 2 SOUTH AND 2 NORTH. WE GOT YELLED AT FOR MOVING TABLES LOL

XIAOJUNNN

NATASHAAA

OUR ROOM

OUR HALL

WHILST PLAYING SIGNS

ITS MICHAEL

SIGNS

WE HAD A THEMEEDMEETINGGGG. WE ARE SUSTAINABILITY

BRUIN BASHHHH.

CUP NOODLES AT MIDNIGHT

ACTIVITIES FAIR

GOT MAI HAIR DONE

ASSEMBLY BEFORE BBQ

BBQ

BBQ

Tonight

2010-09-14T22:59:00.001-07:00

...is my last night at home. COLLEGE, HERE I COMEEEEEEE

CHINA IN TWO POSTS. PART 2

2010-09-13T14:32:00.000-07:00

FIELDS

AND SO WE WENT TO SHANGRI-LA. WHICH WAS ONLY CHANGED TO SHANGRI-LA A COUPLE OF YEARS AGO. IT WAS NOT PARADISE BY A LONG SHOT. BUT IT WAS STILL PRETTY.

THE HOUSES ARE HUGE

A PUPPY I LOVE PUPPIES HGNNGNG

LOBBY OF OUR HOTEL IN SHANGRILA

I SLEPT ON THIS DAMN COUCH

TIBETAN STYLE?

A YAK! THAT LADY WITH THE FLYERS WAS MOVING TO INTERCEPT THIS PHOTO LOL

A WILD HOG. ITS A LADY.

ANOTHER MIAO

PRAYER FLAGS

WE WENT TO THE PLACE TO RIDE HORSES (SISTERS WANTED TO RIDE HORSES LIKE EVERY DAY 0___0) BUT WE ENDED UP NOT RIDING.

YAK IN MIDDLE OF ROAD

SO MANY PEOPLE ON ONE BIKE

ISN'T THIS WASHINGTON

HE SCARED THE COWS AND THEY ALMOST RAN HIM OVER. THEN HE LAUGHED.

INSIDE A HOUSE

KITCHEN

YOU SPIN THOSE

SHE WAS JUST LAUGHING AND TALKING TO HERSELF

THIS IS INSTANT DIARRHEA. THE BATHROOM NEAR WHERE I GOT THIS WAS THE MOST DISGUSTING I'VE EVER USED.

WE DROVE THROUGH THE CLOUDS

THEY WERE IN THE MIDDLE OF THE STREET WITH FAKE GUNS

ANOTHER TOWN IN LIJIANG. WASHING VEGETABLES IN THE WELLS

I RATHER ENJOY YOUR HAT

LUNCH. IT WAS NOT DELICIOUS.

HOWEVER, STREET FOOD WAS.

LOL

LETTING FISH GO

THEY WERE...HANGING ON TO A VAN...ON THE EXPRESSWAY

ARMY WAS STATIONED HERE! TO HELP DIG OUT THE MUDSLIDES. WE SAW THEM WITH TANKS TOO AHHH

BUTTERFLY POND

IT WAS REALLY DEEP AND CLEAR

A BUTTERFLY LANDED ON MY DADS HAND...WHEN HE WANTED TO TOUCH THE WATER O___O

BAWWW SO CUTE

AND A BIT BEFORE THAT, I SAW A FEMALE DUCK BEING RAPED. IT WAS TRAUMATIZING.

OHGOD

IT WAS LIKE...A MODERN TEMPLE. IT WAS BUILT A FEW YEARS AGO...AND WAS A TOTAL FAILURE. WOULD HAVE BEEN NICE TO SHOOT DYNASTY WARRIORS IN HERE THOUGH- IT WAS TOTALLY DESERTED.

GUAN YU AND LIU BEI

AND ZHANG FEI

NOBODY IN SIGHT

AND MY PHOTOS END THERE!

CHINA IN TWO POSTS. PART 1

2010-09-13T13:49:00.000-07:00

CHINA WAS OVER REALLY QUICKLY...INSTEAD OF THE STANDARD 2.5 MONTHS, I WAS ONLY THERE FOR ONE MONTH AND I DIDN'T REALLY DO ANYTHING...COMPARED TO WHAT I USUALLY DO. QUICK RECAP-

SPENT TWO DAYS IN HONG KONG, BEST HOTEL EVER. HUNG OUT WITH LUCY, SAW ROBERT AT THE MALL. MUJIMUJIMUJI. OCEAN PARK TYPHOON.

SPENT A WEEK DOING ABSOLUTELY NOTHING IN HUMEN. I STAYED IN MY ROOM AND READ MANGA AND PLAYED DS ALLLL DAYYYY LONG. WENT DOWN TO THE HAIR SALON MINIMALLY. IT IS NO LONGER A PLACE OF EXCITEMENT FOR ME. HUMEN THIS YEAR WAS THE SUMMER OF TRYING TO FIX MY FACE. :I

HAD MY BIRTHDAY IN HUMEN. WE HAD SUSHI LOL

WENT TO BEIJING FOR A WEEK. IT WAS...DISAPPOINTING. UNLESS I SPEAK TO PEOPLE ALOT (WHICH I USED TO DO WHEN I WOULD HANG OUT AT THE SALON), MY CHINESE DETERIORATES LIKE WHOA. SO I WAS PRETTY SHIT AT HAGGLING AND THE CLOTHES IN XIDAN DON'T REALLY APPEAL TO ME ANYMORE. AND I GOT A NOT SO STELLAR HAIRCUT AT TONI&GUY. WHERE IS MY IAN CAAAAO? MET UP WITH TONYA AND VICTORIA!

XIAO CHI IN BEIJING

OLIVIA T---T

THEN WE WENT TO YUNNAN WHICH WAS PRETTY COOL.

THEN WE DROVE ALL THE WAY TO LIJIANG...12 HOUR DRIVE MANNNN. NARROW MOUNTAIN ROADS IN THE GHETTO LITTLE CAR WE RENTED WITH MY DAD PASSING EVERY TRUCK/TOURBUS WAS SO SCARY @___@ THERE WERE ALSO INTENSE MUDSLIDES IN YUNNAN AT THIS TIME, SO WE PASSED ALOT OF ROADS THAT HAD COMPLETLEY BEEN WASHED AWAY FFFF

AT STONE FOREST IN KUNMING

OLIVIA WAS ROLLING AND ALL THE OTHER KIDS DID IT TOO LOL

WE ALL DRESSED UP IN TRADITIONAL GARB. AND A BUTTERFLY LANDED ON MY SLEEVE!

THERE IS A BACKSTORY TO WHY WE DID THISSSS. MY PARENTS WERE IN AN ARRANGED MARRIAGE, AND HOW IT WORKED BACK THEN WAS THAT EACH SIDE WOULD BE SHOWN A BUNCH OF PHOTOS OF THE OTHER PERSON AND THEY WOULD PICK AND CHOOSE WHICH ONE THEY WANTED TO DATE. THE PHOTO MY GRANDMA SENT TO MY DAD WAS MY MOM AT STONE FOREST (20 YEARS AGO) DRESSED UP IN THE TRADITIONAL CLOTHES. AND NOW...20 YEARS LATER...IT REVERSES LOL

OH, DAD

THE WATER HERE IS APPARANTLY 40-80 FEET DEEP?!

THREE PADOGAS OR "TA" IN DALING. WE JUST PARKED ACROSS THE ROAD FROM IT AND LOOKED AT IT, AND BOUGHT LOTS OF MANGOES HAHAHA

LUNCH WE HAD AT DALING...THIS WAS THE KITCHEN :I

THIS DRIVE WAS SO BEAUTIFUL ;A;

CHINESE GAS STATION

BEAUTIFUL COW

SCARECROWS

THERE WERE ALOT OF 3 WHEELED CARS

*A*

LIIIIJIIIIANNNG. IT...WAS...BASCIALLY COLORADO LOL. THE ENTRANCE FEE TO NATIONAL PARKS (BUT THIS WAS A STATE PARK) IS RIDICULOUS COMPARED TO THE STATES. IT COST AROUND 100 BUCKS FOR US ALL TO GET IN...IN THE STATES, ITS 5 DOLLARS PER CAR. WTF CHINA WAY TO MAKE NATURE INACCESSIBLE TO GENERAL PUBLICCCC

ANYWAYS.

SO MUCH LIVESTOCK

CHOPPING WOOD

THERE WERE ALOT OF ETHNIC MINORITIES. I THINK SHE WAS BAI?

WENT ON CABLECARSSS TO GO SEE THE YAKS.

BUT THERE WERE NO YAKS.

A...MIAO. TEMPLE?

TSUP STORM CLOUDS

ON THE WAY DOWN IT STARTED RAINING REALLY REALLY HARD

THEN IT TURNED SUNNY. AND THERE WERE COWS IN THE PARKING LOT

GOD RAYSSSS

BRO THIS BE UNEDITED

THE WATER WAS OPAQUE AND VERY...TEAL

OR SEAFOAM I GUESS

ANGELA FELL IN. I LOL'ED

HOW MY PARENTS REACT TO SITUATIONS WHEN WE DO DUMB STUFF; MOM GETS MAD AND DAD LAUGHS. NOTICE THE WEDDING COUPLE BEHIND US LOL

THEN IT STARTED HAILING AND RAINING AND THERE WAS A RAAAAINBOW.

NEXT WE WENT TO...LIJIANG OLD TOWN. WE RODE HORSES LOL

OTL SHAME

THIS FOOD WAS SO GOOD HOMG

RESTAURANT STREET

THIS PLACE, THERE WAS A DANCING...SHOW. BUT NORMAL PEOPLE COULD JOIN IN. IT WAS LIKE ONE BIG PARTY

DAD STOLE THE CAMERA AND WENT TO TAKE PICS. HE DOES NOT UNDERSTAND HOW TO USE @_@

WENT ON UNTIL LATE AT NIGHT

I HAVE NO IDEA WHAT THIS IS.

OK TOO MANY PHOTOOSSSS IN THIS POST SEPERATING INTO TWO YEAH!

Japan day 12 (Departure)

2010-09-11T16:06:00.000-07:00

SOB MY LAST DAY IN JAPANNN. We just went to Tokyu hands one last time : ((

THEN WE SAID OUR FAREWELLS.

IN THE AIRPORT. EXECUTIVE CLASS LOUNGE BABY

I WAS THE YOUNGEST IN THERE

Japan Day 11 (Odaiba)

2010-09-11T15:54:00.001-07:00

We went to Odaiba one last time because we had such a fun time at the hot springs place last time!

We went to get lunch first though~

SO CUTE

SO DELICIOUS

WHAT IS THIS LOOKS SO COOL

FERRIS WHEEL!

FUJI TELEVISION BUILDING

AND INTO THE HOT SPRINGS PLACE WE WENTTTT

THEY CHANGED SOME OF THE ACTORS ;A;

LOL

LOL

BEST

I'M SORRY

BAWWWW

DESSERTTT

PACKING

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Japan Day 11 (Odaiba)

2010-09-11T15:54:00.000-07:00

Japan Day 10 (Roppongi & Ninja)

2010-09-11T15:33:00.000-07:00

I LOVE ROPPONGI. We went to midtown to browse around. We had breakfast at a green tea shop!

THIS IS AT THE HOTEL THOUGH

MIDDDTOWWWWN

ITS...SO...BEAUTIFUL

WE ATE LUNCH IN HERE. SOUPPPPS

TRIED TO SIGN UP FOR COOKING LESSONS. BUT THEY WERE FULL ;A;

SO. HIGH. CLASS.

MUJI. I LOVE THIS STORE SO MUCH

WE WENT TO 21 21 DESIGN SIGHT. IT WAS SO. COOL.

THE EXHIBIT WAS ABOUT HUMAN IDENTITY. THERE WAS ONE EXHIBIT THAT SCANNED YOUR FINGERPRINT, AND IT SHOWED UP ON THIS LARGE LCD "POOL", WHERE HUNDREDS OF OTHER FINGERPRINTS WERE SWIMMING. IF YOU SCANNED YOUR FINGERPRINT AGAIN, IT WOULD COME RUNNING BACK TO YOU. THERE WAS ONE THAT SIMULATED A BATHROOM, AND THERE WAS A FISH ON THE OTHER SIDE OF THE REFLECTION. IF YOU LOOKED BACK ON YOUR SIDE TO SEE THE FISH, THE FISH IS NOT THERE. THENNN YOU REALIZE THAT YOU WEREN'T IN THE REFLECTION AT ALL.

LUNCH!

IT WAS DELICIOUS

THEN WE WENT TO DON QUIXOTE! WHICH IS A BIG SHOP. FULL OF EVERYTHINGGG

LIKE THIS BIG FISH

NON PRESCRIPTION CIRCLE LENSES SOB SOB

THEN WE WENT TO MING (JEANINE'S COUSIN)'S HOUSE! AND WE ATE ALL HER FOOD. AND I PLAYED WITH AUGUSTINE BAWWW

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THEN WE WENT TO NINJA. WE GOT LOST AGAIN DOHOHOHO

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NINJAAA!!!

WE WENT INTO THIS SMALL LITTLE ROOM, AND OUR NINJA POPPED OUT OF A SMALL HOLE IN THE WALL. SHE LED US THROUGH DARK HALLWAYS AND CAVES, AND WHEN WE RAN INTO A DEAD END, SHE SUMMONED A BRIDGE SO WE COULD CROSS OVER THE STREAM HAHAHA

OUR NINJA WAS CALLED TEMARI!

8D

THEN WE WENT TO 711 TO GET FOOD BC THE PORTIONS WERE REALLY SMALL AND EXPENSIVE HAHAHA