END OF FRESHMAN YEAR

---June 4
It's been a long time, huh?

Two and a half months? I think that's the biggest gap I've ever had in doing any journal writing or recap or anything. Is it laziness? Is it me becoming a more private person? Being busy?

Who knows, who cares?

Whatever-this was never for anyone else.

I miss having a cohesive journal with pictures reminding me of all the good memories I've had (and what I've done too, I suppose).

Time to start again before things get hectic again!

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But man..! Who knew that it could have turned out this well? My luck has been a bit too good this past quarter...I'm almost afraid of the time when it'll stop or when bad luck comes my way. What's the use in worrying about that though? Whatever whatever. I wonder, why do I do what I do? Art-wise I suppose. Life-wise, too. Like, drawing has been my "thing" since elementary school, but now I'm really doubting whether I'm good enough or if its smart enough to continue (even though I've really really slowed down). It takes up so much time and for what? I don't think I have that pure inborn talent and the hard work that's necessary to get to a fulfilling spot. But drawing's the thing that started it all- those days in middle school on deviantart and drawing with Tonya and Victoria during those little friday night parties we used to have. ...////

-----June 21
Man, how DOES time manage to pass so quickly? I remember when I used to post like...every three days in this blog, back when my life was uneventful. Now that I'm actually doing things and life's value is starting to become more clear to me, I find that my time to sit back and reflect diminishing. Or is it because I continually put too much on my plate? That I think I can be an overachiever when I really am not? Oh, who knows? Who cares?

Spring quarter has ended. My first year at UCLA has ended.


Something new starts. (After I catch up on event posts.)