Disconnection in 3....2....

and 1.

Its all out in the open. Its kind of amazing what pressure does to people and causes them to act like that. How childish. I don't regret anything. Maybe some things. But I'm glad with the outcome. I've been childish and selfish but I was pushed to it. Its always really high stress isn't it? And the fact that I can't keep my mouth shut or censor what I think or say. Which could be a problem when it hurts people, but I don't want to forget. I need to look back and learn.

Yes, I've made mistakes. Yes, I've done things I shouldn't have done. Yes, I didn't act in a perfect way, that I did at some points stoop to a lower level than how I usually hold myself, but I don't regret anything. It was just a mistake from the beginning. I should have read the signs and acted on them faster. Alas, I guess this can only be turned into a learning experience.


It's time to start over.

And honestly, that is what I've been needing for the time I've been here.

I say that as if everything is wrong, and its not. Just some parts. I'll just start over in those parts. Everything else I did before worked out well and I am happy doing them so I'm going to let them be.

Just be above it all and don't sink to that level.


Why let myself get bogged down by this? Why surround myself with people that have different values and goals (or no goals at all) when there are so many inspired and energetic people out there? Why limit myself?