God. The future looks grimmmm ghurrr How did I do so well last trimester and how can I be stumbling now? I've been neglecting things that I should have been doing from the start (cough cosplay cough AP portfolio cough SAT prep barff) and doing useless things like browsing soompi or just sitting on my butt doing nothing on the internet. There are so many things I need to do and I know I have to do them but I keep on putting them off and I don't know if its too late to make them all work...For cosplay, CBF is in TWO WEEKS and I have less than 50% of the costume done,....(and all the easy parts are done, so its just the hard parts @_@) and I don't really know what's going on with the dance skit and its worrying me even though it shouldn't be, I haven't worked on Simon AT ALL. Like, AT ALL. It's an easy cosplay but its like...the second most important now @_@. I haven't started on Xing Ke either gahhhh which is also easy but I don't know how long it'll actually take me and gahhh Don't know what to do. My room's in the messiest state its ever been in and I have no desire to clean it up since it just seems so endless and what will happen after I clean it? Huuu did badly on a bio quiz too because i didn't look closely; I knew all the info which is what's so frustrating huuu. I have an english journal response on a topic I have NO idea how to answer, and its supposed to be 2 pages long and I can't start because I don't know how to answer and its almost 10 pm and its due tommorow shieet and we have an inclass essay on a similar topic aka something I don't understand... Got less community service hours than I thought I was going to get today...4 hours instead of 7 gahh what am I going to do...and I have to give applications to teachers and I don't know if they can finish recommendation letters on time and gah I have to write like 3 stupid essays for the application and gah I don't know anymore even though it an amazing opportunity that won't come again easily. I wish I was more dedicated. I wish I could get off my butt and off facebook and soompi and all that shiez. Deviantart was actually USEFUL to me cuz I actually got better at art through critique and stuff...but now I'm neglecting it and I wish I wasn't because I miss it there but all the old friends have left and some new friends don't have the time and I feel like its been alot more inpersonal ever since I've started talking to people on msn or whatever. Soompi frustrates me most of the time; I don't even know why I'm on it, and yet I know I'm doing it because I want more attention which is the worst reason in the world everrr god. But everyone else on the site is the same hahaha...Unless you talk extensively over instant messaging or irl, you can't really "make friends" and all of the soompi people so far are just superficial acquaintances, and they aren't really at fault cuz the soompi 411 culture is just like that I guess :| Diet's not going too well either, I'm too impatient huuu I've been running mostly everyday but I'm not seeing results and it suckshuuuuuuuuu

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