BAWWW

OH CHINA. I was an hour late today for art class and I didn't care at all. We had to draw that stupid vase again and ONLY the outline...8 hours of only doing that and only being allowed to draw one...SO POINTLESS. I want to move on to other things and I know this exercise is supposed to make us "see" better, but its the second day of drawing that thing and its getting so annoying. I'm seriously considering ditching tomorrow but that won't do : (. Was supposed to go out and party with Jeanine tonight BUT pizza hut took too long because they forgot my last order so I played FF4 for two hours before they finally noticed me OTL Huuu I'm so lonely in Beijing, I hate being home alone, especially here. I only get back at weird times when most everyone is asleep in america (3-7am : ( ) and its hard to catch anyone else online BAWWW BUT I've been able to get to know Skylee alot better and GOD SHE'S SO FUNNY. Oh, kimchi and Jonas Bros bahahahahhaa.....Its one thing to look forward to when I come back from the hour commute and the art school hahahaha I miss talking to the people I used to talk to alot...V, Jeanine, Alan, Ava, Michael, Cassie, Rei, LAMAH and SO many more...I MISS THE CAPSLOCK CONVOS BAWWW but everyone is either busy or its just the time zone thing hurrrr : (

I feel like I'm doing so much and yet....there aren't any results to show for it. UGUUU

Art class is SO tedious, we're not allowed to talk, only to ask each other for quick critique so making friends has been especially difficult. My chinese has gone down the drain so I'm afraid to talk to people and there aren't any chances to. I sit alone during the two hour lunch break. I'VE NEVER BEEN THIS ANTISOCIAL BEFORE but just GOING to the art school makes me depressed now hahahaha...My DS and FF4 is the highlight of my time there. So sad, so sad.

I JUST WANT TO GO BACK TO AMERICA WITH MY ENTIRE FAMILY AND SEE MY FRIENDS AGAIN. NOT JUST THE FRIENDS WHO LIVE CLOSE TO ME, BUT ALSO THE ONES I DON'T GET TO SEE AS OFTEN. OH, REAL LIFE WHY ARE YOU SO HARD.