Suddenly, I'm in a totally shitty mood. Why does this happen again and again? I thought I was totally over it but it just comes back harder and worse each time. I hate myself, why am I so unreasonable? I don't think I can keep it bottled this time but even if I say it, who will be here to hear it? I'm alone here.

I couldn't paint today, the thought of not seeing my family and being alone until early September depresses me and that added onto the stupid shit referenced in the above bit is making my night so shitty urhhhh

I drew in my new sketchbook more today alone than I did for 6 months in my old one. I love it alot. Its big old and cheap, just like me.


I had a crowd watching me as I drew this, Rydia from FF4.


subway


shitty sketch




I don't even know















Sky, will you please stop shooting lightning down? I'm really scared of it and I can't sleep with all that thunder. I need to wake up at 6am and its already midnight.

I work so hard, man. But lately, it seems like just people are getting the results of my hard work and I'm left with nothing. I wake up at 6am and I get home at 10:40 pm. I don't get to see my family or friends here. I can't even talk online because of the time differences and the lack of time. I'm just feeling bitter because I'm giving everything up so I can improve MYSELF not others and all I've done before is being taken away and I can't stop it.

Someone, anyone, what do I do?